Friday, December 31, 2010

Keep Your Balance

Happy 2011 to our global audience. Some of you already are in that. So if you're east of New Zealand, try not to give too much away about what's coming up.

Keeping your balance these days? For us, it's a matter of keeping in mind we're not responsible for what others say and do. The best thing to protect ourselves is to just concentrate on keeping our positive balance. Limit contact with triggering people as much as possible (if it's not possible to just cut them off). You have your bad days with that. Then again, what else can you do?

NOTE: Some of you are probably asking, just how many countries are you read in? Naturally, you don't have clearance for all of that information. However, we can tell you that it's about 32 countries. We're everywhere except in Africa and some parts of Asia. Our latest readers are in the Caribbean and some new ones in the U.K.

We don't have ads or sell anything here. In almost three years we've stuck to that policy. Can you name one other blog that does that?

In return, we only ask one thing. Link us everywhere and everyway you can without hurting your overall healing. Please text or email others about us. The mobile device market is still one of the fastest growing ones globally. Let's tap into that.

Use you tools as creatively as you can. Which means that the Really Rich Powers that Be will have to possibly deal with less money. They can deal with it.

Happy 2011.

Thursday, December 30, 2010

Protect Yourself and Fight Back (all at the same time)

It's really true. Just when you think you're caught up on the latest smart phone/laptop/plasma TV, a new one comes out. Do you then upgrade? Do you steal software? How do you keep up?

Take some time to go to reputable sources, and it does pay off. For trauma survivors, it's also useful because of global networking with other survivors. There's the good and bad side to it.

The good side is creatively use your tools to share content, tipe and more that we can all use. The bad part? Some who say they're ______ actually aren't. Not all but some support sites for survivors have pedophiles as administrators.

How do you trust anyone? We're not sure. We used to use some forums, but we stopped because of lots of horrible experiences. We followed their Terms of Service. Then, in at least 3 cases they turned out to be nightmares.

What are the reasons for this? Budget cuts. Not enough people have the time to work on these. But also, keep in mind online security. While it's obviously good to try and get the help you may need, you also have to protect yourself.

A few basic ideas:

Don't leave any obvious clues that be connected to find you.
If your current browser or O/S isn't working, consider upgrading or switching.
Use encrypted email or multiples IP addresses to cover your tracks.

All of these are out there and can be used (a lot of it for free). You just have to know where to look.

Getting help is great. But protecting yourself at all times is even better.

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Global Networking (Contains potentially triggering content. Read at your own risk).

How's your Wednesday? Time to say thanks to our growing global audience:

South Korea
The Russian Federation
the U.K.
New Zealand
and of course all over the States

We don't know who you are. We could use satellite techonology from Google to check out your neighborhood. But we'll be nice and stick to the blog.

Since it really is a global economy, it only makes sense to use your tools in the most creative way to connect. We try to pass on helpful tips and tools that are freely available on line. Some cost a small amount. The point though is how you use them.

Some of you are dealing with unstable governments, rebel attacks, floods, earthquakes and other stuff. Here, lots of problems as well.

One major problem seems to be a growing disregard for reality staring you right in the face. (NOTE: let's see if we can stick to our rule of No Triggering Current Events that you can find on those other blogs).

From a trauma perspective, the stress continues to grow in various parts of society. This means that the national PTSD rate is going up as well. It varies depending on the person and their situation. Despite that, it IS there.

Another example: rape cases in the military are growing all the time. If your really want to help a survivor, it's a good idea to start by admitting that you see all of the survivors in front of you.

There are both women and men rape survivors in the military (as there are in civilian life). How many times do you hear that in the MSM or the progressive? We don't.

To us, this means that many key people in key positions are making the problem worse. How come nobody tells them that to their face?

One copout? The number of guy survivors is so small it's not worth talking about.

Tell that to a guy survivor who's putting his life on the line in Iraq or Afghanistan.

Obvious question. How could you not feel insulted by that? Set aside for a moment if they're gay or straight. Deal with them as people violated by something horrible.

However, many powerful people don't want to do that. If it was their kid or loved one, odds are they'd use every means at their disposal to help them. They'd want to keep it as a "private matter" to keep the MSM out. To a point that's understandable. Nobody should be forced to out themselves.

Now, why is there a double standard? One for the rich and powerful, and one for the rest of us?

Because it's the old "out-of-sight-out-of-mind" scenario. Most people will do and say literally anything to make this just magically go away. It doesn't matter that these people didn't ask to be raped, humiliated and treated like dirt when they try to get help.

Just shut up and go away. But also, it's YOUR problem. So please get help. But not from me.

The Assange case is a perfect opportunity to talk about the real concerns that all rape survivors have. But nobody cares. All that matters is Assange Hype:

It's all a sham to get him killed in the States.
Just how hot is he in bed? Let's ask all of his former babe partners.
Graphic sexual details are way more important than an actual discussion about

How come none of the "big names" supporting him will touch this? They know that rape is happening in the military. They know that there are gay servicepeople. Yet, all that seems to matter is the spin on the story.

Then again, they have to live with the consequences of their actions. We wonder how they do that?

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

How to Cope (Contains potentially triggering content. Read at your own risk).

It's either blizzards or 40+ heat. It seems like there's no middle ground anywhere.

Is the same true as you deal with healing from trauma? Do you feel like someone is listening to you? Or, does it feel like no one pays attention?

Lately, we're fighting to keep our balance. Symptoms and despair at times are crippling. We can't afford to go back to a therapist. So we make due with our sources for help when necessary.

Aside from that, do you feel paralyzed from fear? Do you feel like nobody wants to have literally any contact with you of any kind (for whatever reason)?

How do you cope with this? We're taking lots of breaks and just trying to keep moving forward. This doesn't mean don't pay attention to what's going on. Just try to keep your focus as best you can.

Everyone is responsible for what they do and say. They also have to live with the consequences.

Monday, December 27, 2010

How's Your Monday? (Contains potentially triggering material. Read at your own risk).

As they say in Australia, how ya goin? It's back to the grind (except for the lucky few who have really long holidays).

Here, it's been tough. We're fighting really hard to keep our balance. We have to be careful because triggers are everywhere. This means everything still has to be screened. Also, can you trust anybody? These days, that's extremely hard to do.

What helps to keep you focused? What helps you to not snap and kill everybody who gets in your way? We still cry many times and despair is really tough to deal with. Then again, we have to protect ourselves. What other choice do we have?

Sunday, December 26, 2010

Go Shopping

How was your Xmas? Many will go shopping today to get those great holiday disocunts to get ready for next year. Good Western economic planning.

Ours was rough. We felt sad and still do at times because nobody wants to listen to us. We still hear idiotic and triggering rubbish from others who think that this is prefectly okay to say. They seem to care less that two pedophiles repeatedly raped ues and that we could have been killed. Instead, it's okay to say rubbish like what's the big deal? It's just "experimenting" that all kids do.

How do you respond to that? Would you beat their ass into the ground? Or, would you just walk away?

We're fighting to keep our balance as best we can. Which means that we'll stick to our boundaries and never talk about this again with any immediate "family". We're sick of being constantly treated like crap by others who think this s**t is "normal communication". No it's not.

If the worst happened and they got raped, are we then supposed to instantly drop everything and help them because we're "experts" on this? We don't think so.

Do you get this s**t from others? How do you cope with this? We're just making it clear that boundaries are in place. Also, everyone is responsible for what they do and say. EVERYONE. You have to live with the consequences of everything you do and say. We still have to fight symptoms and trying to feel like we won't snap in two.
If we go public, we're uninsurable because of something that's not our fault.

But nobody wants to hear this.

Okay. If you don't, you can't have it both ways. You can't say go away one minute. Then the next go off on someone because "we're so concerned and you never say anything, blah blah blah". It doesn't work that way.

You have to protect yourself.

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Some Stability for a change

How's your global holiday going? If you're having a nice one, try not to rub it in too much as you post comments here.

For some reason there's a little bit of stability. Symptoms are still there. But at times it's a little easier to focus. In the past, it's been non-stop dissociaitng. Imagine that for years and years.

We know that this doesn't obviously change overnight. Despite that, it's common for trauma survivors to feel like you fight all day long, and then you've moved maybe 1 inch. Then, the next day it's the same thing. You may find a helpful therapist and feel like you're healing from the cause of your trauma. But that frustration is still there.

Every day we check to see where our views are coming from. We know people's general location. If we wanted to, we could use our Google Satellite tool to actually check out your neighborhood. Then again, there are intl. laws against stuff like that.

The fact that we have loyal readers in over 32 countries tells us that millions need to be heard. Hopefully we can provide you a safe outlet to do that.

In return, we only ask that you link us everywhere you can. As long as it doesn't endanger your healing, think outside the box and try everywhere. There's "blatant spamming" and then there's "expressing your opinion". It's just a matter of how you post.

Back to the job hunting, shopping, cleaning, cooking.....

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Covering Bases

Just finished lunch. Now, it's back to job hunting and trying to cover all the bases regarding financial help.

We're really trying to do this in small segments. Anger and dissociating are still the worst symptoms right now. Another thing is in some foods with "natural flavors". What does that mean exactly? We've asked several people in different stores, and they have no clue. The point is that we don't have the tolerance for it. We're trying to use herbal supplements and other things to help keep our balance. However, at times you have to fight back really hard to not fall apart.

Nighttime is the worst. You fight symptoms all day long and then you're exhausted. You have to fight back because if you don't you'll fall apart. My multiples and little kid aren't saying it's one thing that's causing this. It just feels like all the trauma is coming out. Also, nobody's going to help you.

Do you just sit back, "go with your feelings" and fall apart? Or, do you fight back and always feel like you're going to snap in two?

We don't know of another way to do this. If you have a better idea, tell us.

We don't want to end up with literally nothing because of getting raped and nobody paying attention. We're not there yet. However, that fear is there for all trauma survivors (regardless of what you're dealing with).

Back to job hunting.

Sunday, December 19, 2010

It's the Network

Just talked to one of our East Coast sources re: contact numbers for various help:

Emergency Assistance 1-800-249-2007
Dept. of Transitional Assistance (potenital long-term rent help)

Violence Recovery Program 1-617-927-6250

Here, we also have links that we pre-screen to make sure they can help both guy and women survivors with PTSD. Saves you time and extra stress when you need help.

If you can suggest others, please post them in comments. Since this is free, we have no assistants to do this for us. Thanks!

Taking Things in Tiny Segments

An early happy holidays. Hope you're part of the world is calm and happy.

Here, we're really working to keep our balance. A suggestion: stay away from all triggering stuff. There's no reason to look (unless it's your job). If not, do something else. Also, we're going to just stick to trauma here in the blog. We've been getting way too much into another-progressive-blog content. That's not the purpose. If that's what you want, please go to the other guys.

Now, we're have to start selling stuff. We're sorting and trying to see what's the best return we can get on this. We're still applying for the new job(s).

If they don't come thru by the end of the year, then it's lots of scenarios:
Appeal our SSI (Supplemental Income) denial.
Apply for food stamps, temporary family aid and all the help we can get.
Others in the family maybe can help with rent and utilities.
If the worst happens, close our our current flat lease. Sell everything we have to for the maximum cash. Pay off all bills and then leave.

Where would we go? At this point, we're not sure. A major area (West Coast?) with hopefully more potential. We'd like to just not show up with nothing. Instead, have a link to get us there (school, work, a paid internship if possible). Our passport is valid. Which means that's another option to have. If it doesn't work in one area for whatever reason, go somewhere else.

Is this happening to you? If it is, what's helping you to cope? For us, keep your positive focus. Avoid all triggers. Think outside the box as much as you can. Try every job searching option you can. Also, if one "job expert" doesn't work out, keep going.

Post your comments and share with the rest of our global audience.

Friday, December 17, 2010

Fighting Symptoms

How's your Friday? Here, we're fighting to keep our balance and deal with symptoms. For some reason, body memory is a big problem. Physical pain and flashbacks as well.

How do stay grounded? What happens if you try to and nothing seems to work?

We just try to be aware of what's in the space we're in. If that doesn't work, then deep breathing. If that doesn't work, then we scream and fight to not black out. Because you have to.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

How High is Your Spam Filter Set?

These days, it seems like everybody's "spam filters" are set really high. What seems to be an actually helpful email ends up in the spam file. Nobody checks it. You're pissed off for them ignoring you. Then finally it's HERE (in the spam file).

It's kind of the same idea for trauma survivors to filter everything. Is this helpful to you or not? Is there some rule that says you must sit and take all the garbage someone throws out at you because it's ok? No, it's not.

This means unless it's for work, question it and see. Do I have to deal with this or not? With a lot of political stuff happening, be very careful. Is your intuition screaming this is _______? If it is, you're right. Is this helpful to your overall healing? In our case, it's not. If we don't filter this stuff, we end up with nightmares. It's like all of the trauma in the world is coming down on you. It's too much to deal with.

Does this mean you can never watch/listen to/read anything again? No. There are other sources and things that you can do. Another idea (if you have the money for it) is a virtual assistant.

Set aside all of the "we can't have offshore people doing our work" stuff for a minute and think. If someone else can cover a lot for you (at say $5 an hour), how much more free time will that give you for other things? Possibly more time to deal with your trauma. Maybe more time to find better treatment. Or, a way to make more money to cover treatment costs.

We're not telling you to do anything. We're just offering ideas that maybe will help others as well. Also because an ulgy truth is for whatever reason millions of people who say they're sick of what the Powers that Be are doing aren't doing anything about it. Why? Who knows.

Instead of endlessly analyzing this, why not do this? Just say, everyone is responsible for themselves. Nobody else is going to protect myself, my family or my overall balance. This doesn't mean go to some rubbish survivalist site and stock up on weapons because the world will end tomorrow and other crap. Just stay positively focused and be as proactive as possible.

Because at this point, what else can you do?

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

A Rough Night

We feel really sad. It feels like practically everywhere we've turned to try and get help, nobody wants to listen, laughs at us. Or just treats us like dirt.

Why is that?

Yes, It is Another Triggering Day

As you're online today, be very cautious. There's LOTS of triggering stuff. It makes no sense. Yet, many people actually believe that this ______ will actually work.

How then do you deal with this? Fight the urge to save the world all by yourself. Concentrate instead on protecting yourself. Keep as many options open as possible. Do your online research and networking instead of depending on someone else.

Then, do something nice for yourself every day. It can be anything from a nice dinner to renting a DVD. It's not so much the cost of it. It's the idea that matters.

Have a nice day.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

How's Your Balance?

Tonight it's do some more cleaning and some online research.

It's still WAY too triggering online. Protect yourself as you go along. If you don't have to deal with it, you're right. It sucks and you have better things to do.
Dissociating is the big symptom right now. Nutrition helps to a certain extent. Aside from that, anger and a stuck fight-or-flight mechanism is still there. We feel like we're going to snap in two. You have to get it out. How do you not black out?
Does this happen to you?

We're getting a growing intl. audience. Lately lots of new readers in Russia, New Zealand, the U.K., Brazil and Canada. Help link us everywhere you can. Let's spread back into Asia, the Middle East and how about Africa as well.

Practical Online Security Tips (and not MSM Hacker Hype)

Here, we really try to stick to our only trauma information mantra. Yet, we'll break that this time to cover a lot of things hopefully in a helpful way.

We all know that Julian Assange's bail hearing is set for today. Sweden wants to extradite him for alleged rape and molestation charges. In Virginia, a grand jury is secretly working to see if there are charges to extradite him on.

Having said that all that, while we support the basic idea of Wikileaks, frankly we're sick of hearing hearing 24/7 global hype about what a babe magnet Assange is. Do we really need to know endless graphich details of his sex life? Do we really need to see his online dating profile? That's why we're staying away from this as much as possible.

Instead, we're concentrating on our online security. Here are some ideas that might help. These haven't been endlessly recycled from the MSM "expert Top 10 lists".

Anonymous is saying they're behind a lot of these hacks. Don't freak out and think that the world's coming to an end. It's not. Part of this is of course MSM hype to sell papers and fill airtime.

If someone wants to hack you, a key is to out think them to block the steps that they try. It doesn't matter if you have Windows 7, XP or you're using a Mac. Make a list of what someone could try to do to get control of your PC. Then, a counterpoint to block them.

The obvious one? Update your passwords. Most passwords for sites go up to about a 12 to 15 character limit (sometimes longer). Don't use a really basic one. Make it as creative and long as possible. If the hacker really wants your information, make them work for it.

Assange says his "Doomsday" file has a 256-key encription. Basically, that's the level of protection that governments and corporations use. Do you need that for your home use? Maybe not. Then again, just make it as hard as possible for the hacker.

Sites like My Space and Craig's List are notorious for rubbish content filled with phish links (to get your personal information). Our suggestion? Stay away from them.

Many hackers will steal legitimate content, sites and more to try and scam you. Look for any tiny mistake you can if you think it's a fake site. Check out any information that you think is being used to phish you.

Now, the most important point. Can anything be hacked? Yes. It's a matter of time, code writing skill and how big your ego is. Instead of getting caught up in the Wikileaks-Assange-How-Hot-is-He-in-Bed-Hype, turn that off and update your passwords to protect your content.

Keep your balance and your content.

Monday, December 13, 2010

It's a Global Thing

Hi to our growing global audience:

Ottawa, Canada
Auckland, NZ
The Bay Area
and many more

Please link us everywhere you can without hurting your overall healing.

Had a horrible night last night with lots of nightmares and lucid dreams. We had to scream and fight back to avoid being raped and killed. It doesn't matter that it's nightmares and lucid dreams. The point is in our experience you don't have a choice.

Later we had a nice lunch and that helped some. Despite that, there's a LOT of triggering stuff happening in the world. An idea: maybe we should have the world's first Global Triggering Index Site for Trauma Survivors? The govt. here still has the idiotic color code system that nobody cares about. Which means ours would be way cooler and actually serve a purpose.

If you don't have to deal with it, you're right, stay away. It's not worth it messing up your balance.

Sunday, December 12, 2010

#576 PTSD Protection Tips (online and off)

Latenight posting all over the place. Since there's so much rubbish online right now, it's challenging to find something that you can listen to. 1 billion You Tube clips again? Maybe not.

Instead, something that's condusive to maintaining your balance. This includes finding accurate information about PTSD and how to deal with it in a benefical way.

We've all heard really idiotic and insulting crap from various people (from the "experts" to the _______?). What keeps you from snapping and attacking them?

What helps us is boundaries. Unfortunately, you have to put these up even with people that you would think might do better. However, most don't want anything to do with you.

At times it's almost like getting raped all over again. Would you say this to a woman rape survivor? If you're a rational human being with any feelings at all, no. What then gives you the right to treat a guy like that?

Is it because that's the societal "norm"?
Is it because we're your worst nightmare?
Is it because you can't be bothered to show some human decency for at least 10 seconds?

People can come up with a million different reasons for not admitting that you exist. Our question for them? How do you justify these? How do you sleep at night? Yes, nobody needs to take on all the trauma in the world. However, the trauma survivor didn't ask for this to happen.

What then gives you the right to treat them this way?

Since we started this blog, we're proud to say we're pretty thorough in online security. Now, if we decided to out ourselves, we would be uninsurable. Only because of something that's not our fault. Also, for the next 4 years (thanks to Obama's "health care reform that isn't"), it's perfectly legal.

30% of the Stateside population has some form of PTSD. Yet, what does the MSM talk about instead? 50% of the population is on Facebook. All talk of the wars in Iraq and Afghanistan are essentially banned (except for the obligatory body count on the evening news before dinner).

But, we've decided that we can't save the world by ourselves. Instead, we use our niche to maintain our balance, our healing and then do what we can.

Last point. Everybody from Obama on down has to live with the consequences of their words and actions. This includes politicians, CIA assassins (that don't "officially" exist) bankers and others.

If you don't like something and don't do anything at all within your circumstances to try and change it, you have to live with that.

Faus un petit effort. Do what you can.

Covering Lots of Bases

A nice sunny day as we catch up on our online job applications and more. Since we don't have the virtual assistant, we have to do everything. But,that's ok.

Nurtrition seems to be a key in trying to cope with our symptoms. If you stay off the junk food and keep up with your nutrients, your system's more in balance which then helps to lessen physical symptoms. Then, you can focus better on the emotional aspects of it.

Do you have any tolerance for acidic foods? Can you still eat a lot of your favorites? Or, have you had to make big changes in your diet because of trauma? There are some former favorites we can't even look at without having flashbacks.

At times we feel like we're going to snap. Then again, what else can you do but keep fighting back?

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Is Anybody Listening? (Contains possibly triggering content. Read at your own risk).

We're staying home for a while before it's back out for more errands. We also need some time to sit and get our thoughts out.

How are your symptoms these days? Does anyone take you seriously if you talk about trauma or anything connected to that?

We've spent all week fighting different parts of the bureaucracy. Everywhere we turn, it feels like nobody wants to listen to us.

We're not 60+.
We're not a vet.
Which means that if you don't a nice neat catagory, "experts" in various govt. and social service agencies suddenly become clueless on how to deal with "disabilities".

Here in the States, it's legal to discriminate against a job applicant with PTSD. If you try to get help, some people want nothing to do with you. Because of something that's not your fault.

If you try to get social service help and do, 99% of it is only one time. How then do you cover other things like food, having a phone number, a car and other neccessities?

Do people listen to you? Or, do they just blow you off because you're their worst nightmare?

Does anyone pay attention as you battle symptoms and try to deal with everything else?

Do you hear the rubbish "weakness isn't tolerated" in your area?

Much of the time we get the feeling that others want nothing to do with us. We didn't ask to be raped and have all of this pain and humiliation in trying to survive and get help. But also it's ok to just blow us off or say completely idiotic and insulting things?

Talk to ten people on the street and meintion PTSD to them. Odds are almost all 10 will instantly think of vets. Now, tell them that civilians have PTSD too. Many want to hide or for you to just go away.

30% of the Stateside public has some form of PTSD. Is this every mentioned on the corporate MSM? No. However, Time Magazine will do a story called "Do the Taliban have PTSD"?

How f****d up is this picture?

How do you make yourself heard? Lately, we've picked up a lot of Israeli readers. How do you cope with daily trauma? Pick a country: Russia, Argentina and other places with lots of traumatic stuff. What helps you to cope with death squads, corrupt governments and various other things?

Here, for much of the population it's out-of-sight-out-of-mind. As long as it doesn't affect me directly, I could care less. If that's not true, then why has the same s**t been going on for so long?

It's because not all but many of the "big names" who say they're trying to bring about actual change aren't. Instead, it's write another pointless book. Go on a lecture tour. Put out yet another documentary DVD that tells us "the inside story of ____".

No it doesn't. It's just one person getting rich off of mass misery and apathy. It's not my problem. Blame the f*****g politicians.

Meanwhile, nothing changes.

We're not a celebrity. If we go public, would anybody pay attention?

Friday, December 10, 2010

Boundaries can be a good thing

How's your battle against symptoms going? Do you still have to screen a lot of triggering stuff? We have to edit everything. We've also trashed a lot of extremely triggering material that we'v had for far too long. Think of it as ongoing spring cleaning?

How are your boundaries working for you? We politely but firmly stick to ours. This means using tools in a creative way to accomplish your goal: protecting your balance.

This can be a wide range of things:
putting the right message on your email and voicemail
checking these only twice a day (do you really need to do this every 5 minutes?)
If somebody else is triggering and won't back off, hang up or walk away. There's no point in sinking to their level and then having to apologize later. You have better things to do with your time.
Don't leave any obvious clues in your online content so someone can out you. This doesn't mean be ultra paranoid 24/7. Just careful.

Finally, if you don't need to deal with something, turn it off or don't spend money on it. Why sit there when you don't need to (unless the boss tells you to)? Life's too short.

Also, if you have a strong opinion on something, make yourself heard. The trick is how you do it in this dog-eat-dog 24/7 corporate Net world.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Does this happen to you (PTSD Discrimination)?

Spent all day fighting the bureaucracy in trying to get help with paying for therapy.

For our intl. readers, here in the States there's Medicaid. It's a program designed to help low income people pay for various types of medical treatment. We've been trying to use it as a way to pay for our PTSD therapy.

We went thru national offices. The people there said we can't help you. Go to the state office. The state office people say we only work with people over 60 or people who are vets (we're neither). If you talk to literally anyone else, either they don't know what other agencies are doing. Or, they have no clue on how to help a guy rape survivor with PTSD who's not a vet.

Does this happen in your part of the world?

We're now down to 3 final sources. If none of them can help us, we won't appeal our supplemental income denial. We don't have time to do that, find jobs and look for potential help with rent, utlitities and food all at the same time.

Can you get help where you live? Lots of our intl. readers have stronger social service safety nets. Here, it's the opposite. One national Health and Human Service agency boss actually said if necessary, go to an emergency room for treatment. That way, they have to treat you. Apparently he doesn't know that many people there don't know how to diagnose or deal with various degrees of PTSD.

We have a problem and we want to get help. But nobody wants to deal with us. So the answer is to always go an emergency room?

Does this happen to you?

If we can't get answers to our questions we won't appeal our denial. Instead we'll get new jobs and just deal with this as best we can. What other option do we have here?

If a job or school is lined up (and the student loans as well), we could emigrate to study or work. The question is where would we go?

We feel like we're getting penalized for something that's not our fault.

Any comments?

Sunny, Warmer and Looking Up

How's your day? Here, it's warming up a little for a change. Also no snow to shovel. A good sign.

Keeping our seratonin level up (mainly thru diet) today, and it's helping our balance a little. We still have symptoms. The despair is still there. Then again, we're not responsible for others who just don't get it for whatever reason.

NOTE: A lot of those other sites are putting out end-of-the-year fundraising appeals. Keep in mind we have none of these here:

An online shop with coffee mugs, t-shirts and any other marketing gimmick you can imagine.
A newsletter you pay $19.95 per year for.
CD's, DVD's, or pirate ones that we hope somebody else won't notice.

We offer 100% free information. Coping with PTSD, being a trauma survivor, and online security tips that a consultant would charge you a fortune for.

We could charge you here. But making money off trauma? We don't think so.

Does anybody else offer you this global mix 24/7 for free? Again, we don't think so.

In return, we only ask one thing. Please link us everywhere you can (unless it messes up your healing). Readers in 32 countries proves that quality content and word-of-mouth promotion does work.

Only about 158 countries to go.

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Is Anyone Paying Attention to You?

Staying in tonight to catch up on some latenight voicemail and online content.

We'll be very careful as we write this. But bear with us if some of this is unintentionally triggering.

Assange is in jail. Now, it seems like everyone remotely connected to Wikileaks is getting hacked by "mysterious forces". Can we prove who's doing this? No. However, all of this brings a few points to mind.

What's a key factor in Assange's case? "Alleged rape" by two women in Sweden. He says he's innocent and a victim of a political frameup. One of the women "allegedly" has CIA ties. This means that the sensational aspects are getting way more attention than actually dealing with a rape case.

Yes this has all the elements:
a man of mystery
a global network set to bring down other global networks that don't "officially exist"
Did we mention sex?

Now, is there any talk about how hard it is for women to be taken seriously when they are raped? Is anyone talking about guys who get raped? No. Once again, all that matters is hype to make a profit.

Can you donate to Wikileaks? Not for much longer. Key means of support are all giving in to government pressure.

This case is proof that society will deal to a point with women who get raped. What if this case involved a woman head of Wikileaks and two Swedish guys? Would this be getting the same amount of global hype? Would millions attack the guys for allowing themselves to be raped?

If you talk to the average person about someone having PTSD, 99.9 percent of the time they'll automatically think vet. They'll NEVER think civilian who's possibly a guy rape survivor.

Why is that? Stupidity? Lack of education? Arrogance and a refusal to deal with reality? We don't know.

Now, back to our symptoms. We're still looking for the new jobs. The bureaucracy to try and get help with rent and utilities is rough. We have to protect ourselves.

We still have despair and some symptoms. At night, we cry ourselves to sleep. At times I don't have answers for my multiples and little kid (how come nobody will admit that we exist? How come millions will pay attention to two Swedish women who might have been raped. But nobody will pay attention to us?).

How would you answer questions like that?

Bear with us. We're trying really hard to keep this a trauma only blog. Wikileaks doesn't need any more free publicity.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

An Extremely High Trigger Level

Right now, the triggering level is extremely high. Our suggestion? Unless you have to look at this stuff, don't do it. Do you want to have symptom problems as a result of that(more than you have now)?

Trust your intuition and protect yourself.

Be Aware of the Effects of Things on You

Today is a VERY HIGH triggering event day. Pay attention to your intuition and avoid everything unless you have to look at it.

Another tip for the day. Pay attention to what you do and how it affects you. Is this second nature, or something that maybe you could change in some way? Odds are you haven't thought about how it affects you and your healing.

We've made several changes in many areas. We've saved both time and money. Which leaves you more time for other things. Then, possibly more time to make more money.

Do what's best for your balance and overall healing. All we're syaing is consider making some changes if needed to help that process.

Monday, December 6, 2010

Online Security Tips for Trauma Survivors (some possibly stolen from Wikileaks)

These days, lots of triggering stuff everywhere you look. Is somebody trying to hack your personal information? Lots to be aware of.

Really, that's the operative word. Awareness. Not paralyzed by fear.

How then do you protect yourself? As a public service to our growing global trauma survivor audience, we're going to start adding new links on the left side of the main page. We can't tell you how we get some of these. But we feel it's necessary to protect ourselves (despite this being caused by trauma that's not our fault).

Do you need bodyguards? Hopefully not. Then again, online you can cover your tracks in multiple ways (everything from email to online phone services and more).

Does Wikileaks use these? To possibly a higher degree, yes they do. It's the same idea though. Don't leave an obvious trail for some security service to follow. That's not just some MSM adventure lifestyle filler. That's real security.

We're covering new job leads tonight and trying more social service sources to see if they can help us out. We will not end up homeless for a third time.

If you have any secret documents to leak, please don't send them here. Wikileaks has over 300 mirror sites to help them out. Send it to them because they're equipped to handle it. The only subject here is trauma and when necessary, some current events that are related to trauma. If you want yet another progressive political blog, please go elsewhere.

Have a fun night.

Screaming to Focus

How's your Monday? We still have to fight to focus and feel like we have some sense of balance. We'll stick to our new diet routine and see how that works.

How do you keep your sense of balance? What helps you to stay grounded? Holding onto solid things or something else?

Stay away from all triggering stuff as much as possible. You're right if you think there's nothing new going on. There isn't.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

This Just In. We Still Have No Connection to Wikileaks

Just like the Wikileaks case, the rumors continue here.

Once again, we have no connection to Wikileaks. A lot here is anonymous. But:
We don't know where Julian Assange is staying (as in the street number).
We don't know what his disposable mobile number is today.
What's his Skype user name? We don't know.
Would he call us if we did? Probably not.

However, we do support him and wish him well.

Big news for today. One of our medical sources says that there's a connection between hypoglycemia and PTSD. If your blood sugar crashes, then your symptoms flare up. If your sugar is stable, then your chi is more stable. You can then better deal with your emotional symptoms.

Have you dealt with this in your healing? If you have, how has it worked for you? We're changing some of our diet around and we'll see what comes up. We'll also talk to some other sources as well.

More as it happens.

How's Your Day?

Taking a break before we go back to more job apps online.

Today there's a little more clairty at times. We still have the symptoms. But also, it makes sense to keep up on your herbal supplements and the rest of it. Junk food depletes nurtients in your body. So there has to be a connection between that and symptoms.

Do you feel like you have a better balance? What helps you to stay in a good groove throughout the day?

Stay away from all triggering stuff as much as possible. If your intuition says this is a waste of time, you're right. Listen to it.

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Protect Yourself at all Costs

Just like Wikileaks, trauma survivors always have to protect themselves. Online, there are lots of free tools that you can use (in addition to the content that you post).

The basic idea is to block hackers that want to steal your personal information or out you. Don't leave any obvious dots that can be connected. You can also do things like use encrypted email, fake ISP addresses and more. Sorry, we don't give away all of our secrets.

Now, will you need to use these every day like Julian Assange and his colleagues at Wikileaks? Probably not. Then again, you can't just kick back and do nothing. Adapt this to your needs as you go along.

We're still fighting the bureaucracy and symptoms to try and keep our balance. Had lunch with a friend yesterday to talk this over. Her suggestion? Apply for everything to maximize your odds to protect yourself to be able to keep your stability.

Also though, keep in mind that in this global depression, there are social safety net tools to use. But there's also the emotional aspect of it as well:

Who goes to a food bank? Just dirt poor homeless people?
Who's on food stamps? Alcoholics or middle class people who never dreamed they'd need to use them?

We're not saying don't use these things. They're there and if necessary you do use them. But it's kind of ignorant in our opinion to just say use it and shut up. Because others who may criticize you might be on them soon as well.

Protect yourself and have a nice day.

Thursday, December 2, 2010

We are not connected with Wikileaks

Hi to our growing worldwide audience. Some of the newest readers are in Stockholm, London and various parts of the States. We also have some loyal readers in Dublin and in and around London. Is Julian Assange one of our readers?

We don't know. We could actually use a tool to get a satellite view of their location. Then again, if it IS Jullian Assange, we're sure he and his crack team have ways to block us. That's ok.

But, for those who continue to spread rumors about us, we have no connection to Wikileaks.

Went to see the Supplemental Income advocate earlier today. Lots of applications and red tape to deal with. One key element? You get penalized for being responsbible and actually trying to save money. Under their system you must have less than $2,000 in your account(s). If you have more, you get penalized. This means if you want to save you have to withdraw it and stash it at home. Then again, with the banks these days maybe that's a good thing?

You can't apply for food stamps until your SSI is approved. If you need help with your rent or utilities, you must have a cutoff/eviction notice first before you apply. Also, there's no gurantee that you'll be approved.

Does this happen in other countries? Do you or anyone you know go to a food bank? Have you been homeless in the past? We've been homeless twice because of PTSD.

Keep in mind there's more going on right now than Wikileaks. Which we have no connection to.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Take Things in Tiny Segments

These days, it feels like we're getting bombarded with stimulus everywhere. We won't go thru all the triggering stuff and mess up your day. But how do you cope with it?

Turn it off. Or, just think for a second. Do I have to see this, or not? If not, turn it off. Then, there are other things you can do and be quite happy with.

Tomorrow, we'll see the SSI advisor. Then, we'll have to apply for Medicaid and food stamps. How long will this take? SSI, two months. The rest, maybe 1.

Are you dealing with anything like this? How are you coping?

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Are We Connected to Wikileaks? Read This

Time to break our "no potentially triggering news" rule to make a point.

There's lots of stuff about Wikileaks right now. They've done three releases of material. Next is bank documents.

Now, are we connected in any way to Wikileaks? No.
Are we secretly funded by George Soros or the CIA? No.
Do we use servers all over the world to store secret documents? No.
Do we keep a secret database of our readers? No.

The point is to hopefully reassure you that here everyone is anonymous. All we ask is that you link us everywhere you can. Also, please no spamming. You'll just get deleted and banned. So why bother?

Thanks for your attention.

We're All Over the Place

Good evening/morning to our growing intl. audience.

and all over the States

Staying in tonight to cover more job applications. We're also really trying to keep our balance.

Flashbacks and anger are tough to deal with. We feel like we're going to snap in two. We walk down a busy street and scream because we don't want to black out.

Does this happen to you?

As for those who just don't know when to shut up and stop being triggering, that's not our responsibility. What is ours is to protect ourselves at all costs.

Hope your balance is going well.

You're Not Responsible

The Powers that Be are still doing the same stupid stuff. Still not bailout from the IMF, EU or Obama.

Our situation has changed. Now, we're going to go ahead and appeal our Supplemetal Income denial (SSI). If we didn't (and the new jobs didn't come thru this month), there's a chnace we could have gone bankrupt. This is the best option (beats being homeless again for the third time).

How are you dealing with your trauma? Does it feel like anyone's listening to you? Do you get the usual "shut up and deal with it" reaction from the rest of the world? We're really sticking to maintaining boundaries because many people just dont' know when to stop being triggering. Just saying I can do and say anything I want and you have to deal with it is rubbish. Unfortunately some of the people could care less what you think.

Does this mean then that you're obligated to just stick there and take it because that's how the world works? No, you're not. That's insulting, condescending, demeaning (you get the idea).

You have to protect yourself at all costs.

Have a good day.

Monday, November 29, 2010

How's Your Day?

How's your Monday? Here, there's a little more clarity. The symptoms are still there. We'll see how it develops.

Keep in mind that the purpose here is to talk about trauma related issues. At times, if it's necessary, we'll break that rule to talk about some current event. But only if it's connected to trauma in some way. If you want yet another progressive political blog, please go elsewhere.

A source tells us that St. John's Wart is a good herbal supplement to help deal with depression. Another says that depression is one result of not properly digesting your food. If you correct both, your system is then in balance.

If you haven't tried these, maybe they would help.

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Keep Your Self Control and Your Network Going

Enjoy your Sunday evening if you're west of Paris. If you're to the East, we hope Monday's not too shocking.

How's your network these days? Here, we don't have a syndication service, global bureaus or big budgets like lots of those other people do. However, we do have a growing audience in over 30 countries strictly thru content and word-of-mouth. Which proves you can do anything in a global depression.

Unfortunately, the Powers that Be refuse to deal with reality. Whether it's a global depression, kids getting raped or global torture, it's always worded in a "slightly more soothing way". How many times have you heard "it's the worst economic downturn since the Great Depression"? If that's true, then when they say it's now a "depression", does that mean it will be twice as bad as it is now?

When was the last time you heard about a priest being tried for allegedly raping a little kid? Have you EVER heard that? If not, why? Is it strictly legalese? Or, is it because "rape" is too harsh sounding? (Especially at dinner time)?

Like the headline says, keep your self control. Concentrate on your niche, message and getting it out in the most positive and effective way you can. Also do what's necessary to protect your balance.

We've had to change more in our diet these days. Our tolerance for spicy and highly acidic foods isn't there. Which means branch out into new dishes.

The despair is still there at times. We still have to scream and focus to not black out. We still cry when we go to sleep and keep a knife next to the bed (along with the cell phone).

Do you still have to do this?

NOTE: Thanks for the links and connecting us.

For those who wonder, just who's reading this anyway, we don't give away all of our secrets. However, the word is getting out (lately more in places from Argentina to Moscow to Brisbane).

Only 160 more countries to go.

Fighting for Balance

We're really fighting to focus today. Anger and adrenalin surges still happen. You have to focus to redirect your chi so your balance is there.

Do you have to do this all day long? It's exhausting and frustrating. But if we don't fight back we'll fall apart. And at this point we have no other option.

If you know of something, please let us know.

NOTE: All constructive comments are welcome. However, we reserve the right to edit and if necessary delete all comments that are neither constructive nor helpful in some way. Any blatant spam will be deleted. After that, the poster will be banned. No exceptions.

Saturday, November 27, 2010

With Branch Offices in Over 30 Countries

Into the holiday weekend for some. How's it looking in your part of the world? Also, hello to our readers in New Zealand. We won't get into which is better, Wellington or Auckland. The last thing we need is another intl incident.

Speaking of which, how are your symptoms these days? At times there's some clarity. But at others horrible anger and suicidal thougts. Will we actually off ourselves? No. But it is important to try to face it up front.

Where is it coming from? It's not one specific thing. My multiples and little kid feel like it's everything coming out at once. Like the whole world will stop at nothing to beat you into the ground, stab you, rape you and then piss all over you.

Why would anybody do that? Psycotic rage? Who knows.

This means that you have to protect yourself at all costs. Nobody else will do it for you. If they won't pay attention to you, that's their problem.

That still doesn't mean don't protect yourself with boundaries and everything that you need to do.

Be as nice to yourself as you can. Also, please link us everywhere you can. It really is word of mouth advertising.

Thursday, November 25, 2010

You Need to Know This

Enjoying your Friday? Here, it's a holiday weekend for many.

Also, do you know that today (in the States and Canada) is Black Friday. For our intl. readers, what is this? It's basically a corporate gimmick to line up in front of a store betwee midnight to 5 a.m. Then, be the first one out of say 500 people to get into the store and buy something for roughly 30 to 50% off.

Why do people do this? If it's a movie or a new Apple store, that's one thing. Personally, we wouldn't come to the new Apple store unless Steve Jobs was there and paid us to come in. First it's in the States. Now, it's in Canada as well. Is this covered under the Free Trade Agreement? Somebody call Obama.

Meanwhile, we're still paying attention to subtle signs to try and cope with symptoms. Acidic stuff is still 95% out. We still have to edit as well. If we don't, it's too much to handle. We go back to the feeling that we're the only ones who get the whole picture.

Instead, we just stick to our small niche and work there. Do you have to read/watch/listen to this? If not, then try something else. In our case, we're actually saving some money by not going into triggering places. You just go elsewhere.

Now, if you live in a tiny village in northwestern China, this could be a challenge. Despite that, we've found that it is possible. The idea is to protect your balance by going to positive stimulus. What that is is up to you.

Tip for the day. Try to give yourself something nice every day because you're dealing with your trauma. How much it costs doesn't matter. The idea is to be as nice to yourself as you can.

We're staying in tonight.

Be Very Careful Today

Happy Overhyped Eat a Turkey Day. Here in the States, it's the day to eat too much, watch football (not "proper" football mind you, like they say in the UK). Then, eat and drink even more after that. If you see lots of Americans doing this in your part of the world, just politely listen and nod your head no matter what's said. Then, get some food.

Today, we'll go with spicier food on our menu. Also, chill for the day. We still have symptoms to fight and all the rest of it. However, we're sticking to small segments as we go along. Also, edit EVERTYTHING. If you don't need to deal with it, then don't. Go in another direction and see what happens.

You might be pleasantly surprised.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Some Clarity?

It must be Wednesday. No bailout offer from the EU or IMF. Oh well...

We're trying to be careful with the diet. Avoid acidic foods as much as possible. Today, there's a little more clarity at times. Also, adrenalin surges have gone down some. Does this mean we have no tolerance at all for that? We tried to go veggie at times. But it's too tough to do. Besides, how much does fish cost in your part of the world? For anyone who says inflation doesn't exist, stop sending your personal assistant to shop and see for yourself.

Edit everything if necessary. We still have to do that. If we look at some economic stuff online, we can only take about 20 seconds of it. Constant doom and gloom is always tough to handle. Especially now, it's even harder to deal with.

What helps you to focus? For us, part of it is staying away from others and what they do and say. It would be cool for the millions who want real change to work together and push for Obama's impeachment. What are the realistic odds of that happening? Not very good.

The point is that (in our view), we're responsible for what we do and say. If you want change but do nothing to bring it about, you have nobody to blame but yourself. Can you outsource activism? Not really. The fees are too high and the stress isn't worth it.

Which means as a trauma survivor you have to protect yourself in this environment. Be selective about where you go and what you choose to support. Your healing comes first.

If others don't get it, that's their problem.

Time for some nice tea. With lots of lemon and ice.

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

It's in the Networking

Hi to our new readers all over the place:
and, Duxbury, MA.

How's your coping at the moment. One of our sources says that triggering stuff will be pretty high for the next few weeks. Be very careful and edit everything that needs to be.

We're really trying to just keep our balance and to always have options. Because options and knowledge is power. Especially these days.

How Do You Cope?

Lots of anger and fighting to not dissociate today. We're cutting back on acidic stuff to see if that helps. Also, we're editing everything to be safe.

Despite all that, there's a lot of anger and despair. Fighting to not snap in two. My multiples and little kid aren't talking about new things that happened when we got raped. It just feels like more despair is there.

Does this happen to you? Do people talk around you and not to you (especially when the topic is trauma)? Do others still say just shut up and get on with it?

Do you feel suicidal? Do you black out and then wonder where you are? Do you cry yourself to sleep at night?

Unfortunately there are still lots of stupid double standards when it comes to rape. If a woman gets raped, then society will tolerate it up to a point. If a guy gets raped, nobody wants to deal with you. If they can make money off it, they'll use the expression "sexual assault". Because in polite society we just don't use words like rape (especially at dinner).

Do you feel humiliated? Do you feel like the whole world is beating you down?

Opportunites come up where society could talk about this. But just like "The Great Race Debate", nobody cares unless they can make money off of it. Are we then supposed to say that's capitalism?

At times we have trouble getting out of bed because adrenalin surges are so bad. We have to fight to focus our chi so we can still have some feeling in different parts of our body.

Do everything you have to to protect yourself.

Monday, November 22, 2010

Your Tip for the Day

How's your Monday? Are you getting bailed out? So far, no voicemails from the IMF. This might take longer than we thought.

Still fighting to keep some sense of balance. At times we feel like we're going to snap. But you have to get trauma out.

As for others who will never care, we set that aside and just move forward in a positive direction. What's the point of torturing yourself over something that you'll never have? We have bad days with it like everyone else. Then again, what else can you do?

One thing you can do is be selective with your content. Online, before you automatically look at something, ask do I really need to do this? Is this triggering or helpful? If you have doubts about it, unless you have to use it for work, don't. Go somewhere else. Depending on the topic, there are other ways to get information. You just have to know where to look.

Have a nice day.

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Screaming to be Heard

A rough start this morning. Lots of screaming and fighting to focus and not disappear. Fighting to not get raped again and die as everyone just laughs at us and says "it's YOUR fault".

Does this still happen to you? How do you cope with it? How do you not snap and go kill everyone who was never there to help you?

Do whatever it takes to keep your balance.

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Rules are Made to Be Broken (Contains Potentially Triggering Content)

It really is the weekend. Just when you thought it might be safe, the Powers that Be force us to break our no-triggering-content rule. It is to hopefully make a point. Please link this everywhere you can. If you quote from this, all we ask is to name us as the source.

The TSA (Transportation and Safety Administration) is working with Homeland Security and apprently the health coverage firms to combine airport searches with getting free health care stuff (screenings for colon and other problems). These are not qualified medical staff. These are hourly paid workers doing this.

Does this bother anybody?

Obama can soundbite all he wants about "Protecting the Homeland" and various other fascist slogans. But this is seriously being proposed as a way to:

Improve the lousy image of the TSA
Jack up the health care firm's profits
And make the Democrats look patriotic (instead of idiotic)?

Again, does this bother anybody?

Is this being raped? Yes it is. A complete stranger will see a naked scan of you and check for personal things that are none of their business.

All in the name of "national security" and boosting corporate profits.

What happens if you refuse to sumbit to this? Will you be arrested? Will the TSA person in question laugh in your face and say "f**k, I don't give a s**t. Go ahead and sue my ass. Lot of good it will do you, anyway"?

From a rape survivors' perspective, saying that this isn't rape is like getting raped all over again.

Now, how come millions aren't screaming about this and refusing to fly?

They can't afford to risk losing their job in which flying is a key part.
The corporate MSM has a big hangup about using the word rape. "Sexual assault" is more appropriate.
If it involves little boys and a priest who "allegedly" did it, then hype the s**t out of it for ratings. If not, kill it.

Also do any of the geniuses working for Obama realize that this is traumatic and could cause PTSD? From a legal point of view, currently TSA workers are immune from being sued.

How perfect is that? Possibly some pyscho TSA worker could get off on naked shots of you and find out about personal information.

All in the name of "national security".

And despite all of this, millions still blindly follow/believe in/worship Obama as the "Perfect President who was also the better of only two choices in 2008".

Protect yourself at all costs.

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Online Security Tips for You

Welcome to the Almost 100% Dominated Facebook Universe. 50% of the Stateside population is on it. The CEO says "we want everyone to be connected". Translation: global domination is good for you? It's certainly good for his portfolio.

Onto to other things. So much triggering stuff is out there that we thought we'd pass on some hopefully helpful security tips to protect your balance. If you have more or something that you think is better, please post a comment.

9 corporations control everything that the public reads/sees/listens to in the States. Overseas you have state run media (which does a better job in many cases). But the problem is that in many major countries (in our opinion), these outlets are almost as bad as the MSM.

What's the solution? A classic hacker approach. No, not hack their main site. Instead, think content from a trauma survivor's perspective.

If you want to know your favorite team's results from last night, do you go to the corporate MSM site with "The Latest on Tiger Wood's Day" hourly updates? No. Go to the team's site (or the league's) and bypass all the rubbish. You get only what you need.

The same idea can be applied to lots of other examples. Think of it as selective activism and protection all at once. You don't contribute to a triggering sources' profit margin (profit being money earned from ads, hit and view rates and more). Somebody does pay attention to this stuff. So hit them where they're most vunerable.

Next, when posting content, try to avoid as many clues as possible that someone can connect. Hackers or the govt. agencies that do this "data mine". They have computers that sort thru tons of information looking for key words or phrases to connect. Then they'll label you as a subversive, terrorist, or who knows what else.

In our case, we say to these people, if you want to out us that badly, work for it.

Don't freak out about it. Instead, try to think of ways that someone could get your personal information. Then, block each step by changing passwords, editing content or being careful with links.

Despite what the govt. experts and online security firms tell you, anything can be hacked. It's a matter of time, skill and code writing ability. Therefore, take all the steps you can to protect yourself.

Check the Tony Benn link in our link section. It has some good ideas about fighting to be heard. Not only to protect your political rights, but also your right to be heard as a trauma survivor.

Time for dinner.

Focus is the Key

It must be Thursday. We're taking a break from the "Will Ireland be Bailed Out?" Speculation. If nobody will bail us out, why add to the stress?

How's your focus? Dissociating is still a problem. Triggering stuff is everywhere. Also, be aware of the effects that this can have onn you. At first you may think it's nothing. But it can cause nightmares and other problems. At least that's what's happened to us.

Time to clean.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Fighting for Balance

Good evening/morning (depending on your time zone). Are you getting bailed out? If you are, let us know who to ring up.

We've been fighting all day to keep our balance. Crippling despair happens at times. We won't off ourselves. However, it's like every small thing takes a lot to do. Then, deal with that and everything else. At night, you're totally wiped out.

On the other hand, you have to fight back. If we don't, we feel like a empty shell. Then, the whole world is trying to beat you down.

This means setting boundaries where needed. Since we can't afford our own censor, we do it ourselves. Everything has to be screened. In some places, it's really rough to just focus on getting in and out without dissociating.

How do you cope with this?

With all the global stuff happening, keep in mind one point. Everyone is responsible for what they say and do. Even the rich and powerful.

Can we save the world against them? No we can't. This means we stick to our niche while we protect ourselves at all cost. It's a matter of priorities.

If the bailout comes thru for you, leave a number.

Screaming to Focus

Fighting this mornning to get out balance. Do you have to do the same? Does it feel like you open your eyes and dissociating hits? Then, it's fight all day long to have some sense of balance?

How do you deal with that? Aside from the usual ways (diet, exercise, focusing on solid things in the room), what if none of these work? What do you do then?

Any suggestions, please post.

Have a nice day.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Keep Your Self Control

Hi to our growing audience. Where are some of the newest readers? Brazil, Latvia, Russia, Germany and more.

We try really hard to keep this blog only for trauma related information. Occasionally we have to break that rule to hopefully get two or more helpful points in all at the same time.

For our Irish readers (and we know you're there), feel free to post your thoughts here. Should you take the IMF bailout? That's for another blog.

On the other hand, this is trauma to deal with. The purpose here is to offer help for all kinds of trauma in some way.

Feel free to link us and take advantage of the outlet.

Still fighting dissociating and more. A good dinner has helped some. But now, time for meditation, tai-chi. Then, back to job hunting online.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Cause and Effect

How was your Sunday? Here we've been fighting to focus all day. Dissociating and some adrenalin surges still happen.

How do you cope with this? We try to be aware of the effects of various things. Not just doing it as second nature. But actually saying do we need to do this? If yes, why? Maybe you don't need to.

A lot of sites online that we used to look at we stay away from. Everything that we do look at has to be edited. We try to focus at times to keep our chi balance.

Some ideas that help us:
Caffeine depletes your body of water and chi.
Magnesium is one of the best supplements we've found to help feel balanced overall.
If you feel like you're getting bombarded with Global Meltdown news and other stuff, you are. Pay attention to that.

What keeps you from blacking out? For us, we just have to fight back and not fall apart. If we don't, you feel like and empty shell. Who wants to live like that?

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Staying Up Late

We're staying up late tonight to catch up on a lot of writing and job hunting sites. Also, it's cool sometimes to watch global TV live online. But only non-triggering material.

How are you coping with your symptoms? Do you have blackouts? What helps you to stay grounded? Have you had to set up lots of boundaries to protect yourself?

At times we scream to not black out. It feels like everything hits you at once. But you have to fight back. You also have to do everything else.

How do you manage to do it?

Be Careful What You Read/Listen to/Watch

It is the weekend. What's going on in the world? The people at the top are still doing the same stuff. So go have a nice lunch and see a movie.

Finally caught up on our sleep for a change. And today there's a little more clarity. One tool that helps? Have something on in the background that's stimulus, but not a threat. If it's online, turn the sound down and occasionally just look at it as filler. The idea is to have something in the room to focus on (just like something solid).

Try to keep the I-can-save-the-world idea in perspective. Be selective in what you do (keeping in mind your balance comes first). That way it's more effective for everyone.

Time for lunch.

Friday, November 12, 2010

We're More Popular Globally than the Banks?

Hi to our new readers in Hawaii, Argentina, and the U.K. Right now if we were a corporation we'd have more offices than many major banks? We'd also be less despised? Who knows.

The point is to continue to link everywhere you can. It's the old thing of content and promotion. If the MSM and the progressive as well won't listen, we'll build our own.

Coping ok? With the global meltdown cuts that everyone's talking about, it's everyone for themselves. Also, it's ironic that other world leaders now have the guts to publically criticize Obama's running of the economy. Yet, here millions still think he's the "Perfect President" that will save us.

The politicians say cuts need to happen. Obama says it won't be easy. But also, he dosn't say that his Cuts Commission has no binding ideas. Which means like every other Commission, nothing will happen.

Name one rich and powerful person (this basically also covers all politicians)who will publically say because of the Global Depression, I'm going to take a __% pay cut until this is solved. If someone did do that, they'd get one or maybe two interviews. Then they'd be laughed at and that's the end of it.

How bad is this? Dennis Kucinich was the only canidate in the 2008 election to do this. Did you know that there are still people that had no idea that he was a canidate? But they probably know everything about the latest fight between Simon Cowell and Ryan Seacrest.

Not to intentionally trigger anyone. But unless everybody either votes or overthrows the government, unchecked borrowing will continue. The National Debt ceiling will be raised yet again. And nothing will happen.

We won't bore you with yet another "in-depth analysis" of why this mass apathy continues. Instead, we will offer some suggestions

First, protect your balance at all costs. If you don't have to watch/listen/read something, don't. Do something else.

Take the time to find reputable sources of information. Why? Because you need to.

Be aware of the effects of things on you. Instead of it being second nature, why do you do it?

Use your intuition as you make decisions.

Keep it here for more links and ideas. Again, thanks for the support and please link us everywhere you can (as long as it doesn't hurt your overall healing).

Thursday, November 11, 2010

How's Your Balance?

Another day of fighting symptoms. Dissociating and adrenalin surges are still big problems.

We're trying to be more aware of our chi to keep it in balance. Then again, try that a hundred times a day and everything else. What keeps you from being exhausted?

Try to be aware of the whole thing (diet, exercise, and going to a therapist that you trust). If you need breaks or to just turn things off, if you can do it. If someone needs to talk to you, that's why there's voicemail.

Back to the updates.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

It Went Well

The global reach gets bigger all the time. Name a major city and we're there:

And the People's Republic of Brooklyn, NY!

Went to see the new therapist earlier today. It went really well. No more EMDR for now. We're trying a new approach that seems to be more reassuring.

For anyone possibly new here, many therapists use two basic routes in therapy. Cognitive or "talk" therapy. Also, EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing). It's a way to release trauma (trapped energy) from different parts of your body.

Which one is better? In our case, both helped for a while. Now though, we're trying Komaki therapy. It's a different and overall a more soothing approach.

Our suggestion? Talk to your therapist and decide which one is the most beneficial at the time. For us, cognitive only doesn't work. Also, every survivor is different (trauma, needs, symptoms and more).

Another tip for the day. Acidic foods can aggrevate your symptoms because they deplete the minerals and chi in your body. Another reason to be aware of what you do and how it affects you.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

A New Start

Tomorrow we start with the new therapist. How's it going with yours?

If you're not able to go to one, how do you cope? What's helped us in our interim is to break things down into small segments. The other thing is to build up your sources.

There are various places you can go to. Hope the blog is helpful as well. As we come across new sources we'll add them to the link list.

More as it happens.

Some Clarity for a Change

We still have to fight to focus in the morning. But today we didn't have to scream and feel like we were going to black out. A good sign.

The same triggering stuff is there. We still suggest avoiding all of it unless you have to deal with it. If you can find a way to have millions join your protest and not endanger your healing, so much the better.

That's the key though. If you don't come first, how can you be effective with others?

Just came across an interesting list online. You always see some consultant talking about what do want in your future? What's next in the next 10 years? We have trouble dealing with the next 10 minutes.

The essential idea is this. Not what others say is best for you. But what would you like to do to really feel happy and centered? Nobody else will do it for you (just like protecting your balance).

This is turning into a yet another life seminar. Enough of that.

Pay attention to your intuition and have a nice day.

Monday, November 8, 2010

The Overnight Edition (for the benefit of our intl. audience)

Greetings as we put this together before putting together dinner.

Normally, the nightime MSM in many countries always talk about what's in the next days' papers. It's like there's some intl. law that says that everyone must do the same thing at the same time in the way.

Here, we dare to be different. If we did do that, we'd all dissociate for days. Which means we deserve to be nice to ourselves.

How's your balance these days? We're still trying to cope better, especially with adrenalin surges. Also crippling despair. When we need to, my multiples little kid and I just turn things off and rock back and forth. It's rough when you feel like you're getting bombarded with billions of flashbacks. What's real and what's not?

If you have any suggestions, please post a comment. We do reserve the right to edit them as we see fit. We're also working on adding new content. The idea is to cut down your stress when you're seeking help. Do you go to lots of places to get help, or just one?

We deserve to be heard.

A Nice Sunny Day

Welcome to another week. Looking ok so far? Here, we're really working on keeping our balance. We'll try more of the herbal supplements and white tea to see how that goes.

For anyone new here, thanks for checking us out. Here are a few things to keep in mind:

We don't tell anyone to do anything. Everything here is a suggestion about what helps us. If you like it and it works, great. If you know of something that's better, please post a comment.

This is a mix of survival tips, holistic information and links to crisis lines and more. All of the crisis lines have people who are trained in PTSD. Also, guy survivors are no problem to work with.

Please link us everywhere you can. We now have readers in almost 30 countries. We have no expensive marketing consultants to help us. It's all about quality content and word-of-mouth advertising.

Pay attention to the effects of things on your balance. Do you really have to do something just because it's second nature? If you don't, try something else.

Sunday, November 7, 2010

The Nightime Edition

Hi and how's it looking? If it's anything other than the usual rubbish, we want nothing to do with it.

With symptoms, deep breathing helps some with adrenalin surges. Maybe though it's that everything feels like it's flooding out? We constantly fighting to maintain our balance.

Everything still has to be screened. We don't go into some stores anymore unless we have to. Why? Because frankly a lot of their product (books, magazines, etc.) is really offensive. Now, do we have the time to singlehandedly take on a corporate boycott (along with everything else)? No. Instead we use selective activism. Just go elsewhere and protect yourself.

A lot of well meaning and reasonably informed progressives are saying, we all have a responsibility to change things. While in theory that's true, what's reality?

Some of us are more rich and powerful than others. This means that to actually mount an effective united movement to change the status quo, you have to have a "name" in front.

Name one famous progressive person that's willing to risk their career to do the right thing. We can't think of one. Instead, it seems like everyone's far too busy capitalizing off the endless idiotic things that the powers that be continue to do.

Our suggestion? One, protect yourself and deal with what you can. Two, everyone has to deal with the consequences of their actions. Even the rich and powerful on the left.

What are the Ramifications?

Coping ok today? Another nice and sunny day as we clean and then run errands. After that, lay out by the pool.

The stupid triggering stuff worldwide continues. We won't break the rule and explicitly run down everything. Instead, think of the effects of this on everyone.

Some countries act in their own "national security interests". Yes, it's still human nature for the rich and powerful to fight any perceived threat to said money and power. In the global economy, what's the best way to do that and keep you p.r. problems under control?

Outsource it. Plausible deniability. You can lie endlessly about it and say oh no, we didn't do that. What you don't say? We are getting "necessary information" from this. But we let somebody else do it for us. Besides, do you really think we're going to throw away our career and do jail time for this? Let somebody else go down for it.

And this is called "the real world".

How do you feel when you try to talk about your trauma? Does anyone listen? Do you feel like you have to do something really big to get people's attention? That's the MSM approach to a lot of things. Unless there's some angle to spin, nobody cares. But get a big name involved and then suddenly it's "news".

If somebody doesn't get help for their trauma and then kills themseleves, what happens then? Almost everyone you talk to says the same stuff. They were so nice. Nice and quiet. Never any problems. We had no idea there was any problem happening. And so on.

Which means we'll keep going here. Thanks for the support and please link us everywhere you can.

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Balance is the Key

Listening online to some Giants post World Series stuff online. The rest of the world is way too violent.

Hello to our new readers in the Netherlands and Argentina. Keep linking us everywhere you can. Espcially talk to people who can read us off their I-phones. Or Blackberrys. Or top secret "communication devices". Whatever.

Adrenalin surges are hard to handle at the moment. You have to focus and redirect your chi to keep your balance. If this happens to you, try to stay off all stimulants. Those tend to make it worse. Instead, try drinking white tea (not black or green). White has the lowest amount of caffeine.

Also, be aware of solid things in the room. Pay attention to the effects of things on you. Another idea is to have some type of stimulus on (TV, radio, etc.) that's not threating in any way.

If you have to, edit everything. We still have to do that.

Hope these help.

It's All in the Balance

Having a good day? We have to clean today and thne backup a lot on the external hard drive. We're going to sell a lot on Ebay and see how it goes. Other sites just don't do it.

Keep in mind the effect of waht you do as you do it. Then, do you really need to do it?

Have a good day.

Friday, November 5, 2010

Peace and Quiet

We're staying up late because we've been fighting symptoms all day long. Finally we feel like there's some clarity. No noise, no 24/7 new cycles, no endless corporate MSM rubbish. Just nice and quiet.

At times, are you scared to go to sleep? Can you get any sleep at all at night? Do you still have lucid dreams? How do you cope with that?

With us, anger almost snaps us in two. You have to get it out in the most non-threatening way you can. Despite that, we feel like we're going to black out.

Also, we literally can't handle anything online except scores and music for short segments. Everything else is way too triggering. We feel like we're the only ones who are paying attention to the whole picture. We're not making money off others trauma. No, we don't believe in some massive global conspiracy. It's a matter of protecting yourself.

Does this happen to you? How do you cope with this? For us, slow deep breathing and stay away from all stimulants as much as possible.

Feel free to post comments.

More of Everything

Welcome to our new readers everywhere! Toronto, D.C., the Bay Area and Boston.

Keep in mind our policy here. Maybe we're the only blog that doesn't have a Pay Pal donate button, a online shop and other stuff. If other blogs want that, that's their business.

Here, we'll NEVER have Google ads. To us, why profit off of someone's misery?

All we ask is one thing. Link us everywhere you can. In this dog-eat-dog world, we need all the help we can get. The more people we reach the better we'll feel? We hope so.

Have a great day.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Suggestions for You

Just heard from some of our global sources that it's still a very triggering environment. Lots of problems and lots of people exploiting others' fears about these.

What should you do? Our suggestion is to shut off as much as possible. One reason? Do you seriously think that the leaders in your country are going to tell you the truth about (fill in the blank with a key issue)? Law of Politics #1: keep your job at all costs.

This means lots of "official govt. statistics", reports, "experts" and others to reassure us (lie) that it's all ok.

Well, it's not.

This means that like it or not, you have to question everything. Use the most reputable sources you can. Then, make the best judgement about how to act.

For trauma survivors, it's even harder because who can you trust?

Once again, stay away from all of it unless you have to look. Really, you're not missing anything.

Not Much Has Changed

Yes, it's true. The same stuff that the powers that be have been doing are still being done. Why? We're not sure.

But it's like you're the only one that sees everything that's going on. Which leads to the next question. Why bother looking at it?

We're choosing not to. Do other stuff and see what happens.

Do what you need to to keep your balance.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

You Need to Read This

How's your evening/morning? Welcome to our new readers in Malta, Australia, the U.K., Taiwan and South Korea.

Dealing with triggering stuff okay? Our sources say be extremely careful because the level of this is really high. If you don't have to look/read/listen to something, don't. It's not worth it.

Other than sports and job hunting stuff, we literally can't handle anything else. Music for maybe 20 seconds at a stretch. Then we turn it off. Is there one reason for that? We don't know.

Just an opinion. But nobody else is going to look out for your balance. Do everything you have to to protect yourself. This means stocking up on herbal supplements, white tea and magnesium. Magnesium is one of the best things you can take to keep many parts of your system in balance.

Another idea. Use selective activism to say something and protect yourself at the same time. There are only so many ways to say how come the left won't get their s**t together? We're not responsible for that. It's a common thing for trauma survivors to want to save the world.

Unfortunately, it doens't work like that. Which means take things in tiny segments and work on them. That way, you feel better overall and there's less risk of your healing being messed up in some way.

How are you coping in your part of the world? Is your govt. close to going bankrupt? How do you keep your stress down? For us it's a matter of priorities.

More on the way.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Time to Vote

Happy Mid-Term Election Day (depending on your point of view). The corporate MSM is essntially filling time until it's done. The key points?

The evil neocons will win back control of Congress
Obama will be a one-term President
The markets will have a one-day run. Then, the same boring stuff

What are they NOT saying? The cost of these elections is roughly $3.5 billion. In a global depression. Almost nobody's giving it a second thought.

Based on that, we decided to protest by not voting. There's no viable third party candidate. So why vote for someone you disagree with because "it's the lesser of two evils"? Also, it doesn't bother anyone that nothing will get done for the next two years. As if anything ever does get done?

As for symptoms, we went to see our SSI contact. His suggestions? Get someone else to pay your bills, go on food stamps and work a limited number of hours. We've always paid our bills. We have no debt. Now, we go on food stamps and have no control over our life? We have a problem with that.

We'll take a break and think this thru. Human emotions aren't like a light switch. Especially for trauma survivors.

Monday, November 1, 2010

We Feel Sad Right Now

Tomorrow is our appointment with our SSI(supplemnetal income) contact. At this point, we don't know who to believe. Could everyone be lying so nobody will try to file for SSI or disability? Attorneys doing that in this economy? I don't think so.

Aside from that, we feel sad tonight. Lots of despair and feeling like nobody ever paid attention (other than our last therapist). We closed things out with him. Now, it's onto the new one.

Symptoms are really exhausting. But, you have to keep going.

Sunday, October 31, 2010

Keep Your Self Control

These days, it's a good idea we stole from Former Labor MP Tony Benn. The idea is to keep your balance despite everything that's happening around you.

How do you do this? Be selective with your content. The corporate MSM will tell you it's the "latest that you need to know". Really? Says who? Instead of doing everything as second nature, make yourself ask, is this necessary?

Because the truth is much of it isn't. We've all heard the "experts" analyze this massive public apathy in the States. Books, lectures, CD's, DVD's (and probably a new documentary coming soon). Yet, nothing's changed.

This leads into the next question. How do you solve this?

The answer? Nobody wants to admit it. But especially in a lot of these triggering issues, you have to live with the consequences of your actions.

If you vote on Tuesday, is that a good thing? Yes. Will you singlehandedly change the political landscape? Probably not.

On the other hand, you could say it's all the same, I'm staying home. Then you do.

Which one's worse? The "experts" can examine this all they want. But in the end, you have to deal with the consequences of your actions.

It just bothers us that lots of people on the left seem to be making lots of money off this endless apathy. We all have to work. But, nobody wants to deal with this.

Then again, you aready knew that.

Symptoms are still there. Time for meditation and tai chi for the night.

Enjoy Your Day/Night/Whatever

Nice and sunny today. The pool's open. We may even go for a nice cheap lunch. You just have to know where to look. And how to use those coupons.

Really working on keeping our balance. Especially with the effects of diet, exercise and other things as well. It really is connected.

Protect yourself at all costs. But also try to do something nice for yourself as well. Some Wall Street CEO may say work your ass off 24/7 and you'll be a success. Then again, how many who've done that are still around to talk about it?

Just one opinion.

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Latenight Comments

How's the weekend? Staying up for a while to catch up on some writing. As for the rest of the news, excluding scores, no thanks. Way too violent.

At times, there's some clarity. But we still have to fight to focus. The old therapist won't talk to us anymore. Why? Who knows. Which means time to finish there and start soon with the new one. We're trying to keep as much continuity as we can.

How are your symptoms? Does EMDR help you at all? It helps us. But also at times it's really rough. It's like everything comes flooding out all at once.

Despair is still there as well. Then again, you have to keep going.

Feel free to post comments. Share with millions worldwide and see what happens.

NOTE: Being the editors (somebody has to), we reserve the right to screen and edit comments to make sure they're helpful to everyone here. This means anything we deem triggering will be deleted. Please consider others and their healing as you post comments.

Friday, October 29, 2010

The Weekend

Lots of stuff to do this weeekend. Do you have Halloween in your part of the world? If not, that's ok. Some people think just seeing an American walking down the street is scary enough.

Now that we got the cheap shots out of our system, on to other things.

How do you keep your symptoms under control? For us, part of it is avoiding all triggers as much as possible. This does take a lot of advance planning. But it's necessary because at times it just gets too weird. Something happens and it seems like the world can't be bothered. Why? Because there are far more important things that will get us bigger ratings. So who cares.

It doesn't mean you're not aware or don't care about it. It just means you have to be selective about it.

What can you do that won't harm your healing?

For us, it's just stay away unless we have to deal with it. Also, there are lots of other things you can do that are way more fufilling.

Try it and see.

It Really is Friday

Welcome to our growing audience along the East and West Coasts in the States. Looks like we have some new readers in the D.C. area. Maybe it's Obama? These days, anything's possible.

Speaking of anything, next week are the highly stressful mid-term elections. Breaking our just-talk-about-trauma rules for a moment, what's the outcome? As expected, the Democrats will lose a lot of seats and the power that goes with it. This means that literally nothing will get done for the next two years (not a surprise).

How then do we deal with this? Protect yourself at all costs. Despite a lot of nice soundbites from Obama and others about "how we must do everything we can for our troops and people that are suffering", what's being done? We don't see anything. It's just political posturing that's very profitable for many people.

Therefore, do what's necessary to maintain your balance. Mix activism with balance. If you don't have to go into a store or read/watch/listen to something, don't. If you then multiply that by millions, the people at the top will notice.

Next Tuesday, what would the politicians do if nobody voted? It's not illegal in the States to not vote. If no one shows up, what will they do? What will the corporate MSM talk about to fill time and column space? Is this possible to do? Yes it is. Would people actually do something that's 100% free to express their contempt for the current system? No.

Why not? Because most people are lazy, that's why. We live in a we-want-it-for-free-right-now society. If it doesn't meet that rule, screw it. We can't be bothered.

Now if this did happen, we'd be pleasantly surprised. Prove us wrong.

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Nightime Edition

Good morning to all of our intl. readers from London going east.(and everyone else). With all of the powerful corporate MSM that's out there, keep this in mind. Yes they have the megamillion dollar budgets, the columnists with huge contracts and bureaus all over the world. But what's the key difference between them and us? We're not losing any money. Take that, News Corp.

Do you realize in the States one out of two people are on Facebook? Maybe that's why the other person gives you a dirty look?

What's one way to cope? Keep getting your message out. If everyone is going to one idea, maybe you should go another way. Like the global investor Jim Rogers says, either they'll think you're insane. Or, you're a genius.

Right now, we need peace and quiet. A nice dinner and then just sit and relax. If you know of some big story that's already happening on Friday, unless it's a global emergency, we're not available.

Pay Attention to the Signs

How's your stress level these days? As if we don't have enough to deal with, the powers that be make things even worse. Then, it's either (a)we had to do something because they're "too big to fail". Or (b), we'll do whatever we want. And we dare you to stop us.

Which one is it?

This means that in our view you have to pay attention to what you see and how it affects you. Maybe a lot of your routine is second nature. We're not saying live a spartan lifestyle and never be happy. Just the opposite. Pay attention to the effects of things.

Why should trauma survivors do this? Because nobody else will. It's hard enough as it is when you battle symptoms every day and do everything else. Then, nobody seems to care. Is it expected to do that? Or, do they literally want nothing to do with you (but they do want you to cook dinner, clean and do everything else)?

How do you cope with these double standards?

It seems like almost nobody wants to deal with trauma unless there's something in it for them. The corporate MSM wants something with "legs". What's the angle to give us huge ratings? What can we hype? Not actually paying attention to the story and the underlying reasons. Instead, it has to be able to be spun. Besides, who the hell wants to watch depressing s**t like this at breakfast. We have certain standards that we have to maintain.

Are these good or bad standards? You be the judge.

In our case, today things feel raw. The only things we're looking at online are sports scores and rundowns of games. We literally can't look at anything else because it's too triggering. We stay out of some stores because it's like everything inside is too triggering.

When was the last time you saw an "in-depth" report on a trauma survivor with PTSD who wasn't a vet? We've never seen one.

This means protect yourself. But also continue your own network to get your message out.

We're now read in 26 countries. Which means that millions worldwide need to be heard. Whether it's rape, wars, flooding, earthquakes or epidemics, these people exist. Yes, it's much more exciting to see in-depth coverage of Chelsea Clinton's megamillion dollar wedding with the parents on hand. But does anybody pay attention to the double standard of Bill being appointed by Obama to help with Haitian aid relief? Either Obama didn't get the memo about Bill being involved in overthrowing
Aristede, or he just doesn't care what anyone else thinks.

Try this for one day. Unless you have to look, listen to or read this stuff, for one day turn it all off. Don't check your email. Then, see how you feel. Will the world end? No. If some people can't reach you, is it an international crime to call them back the next day? No, it's not.

Just suggestions. Then again, in our experience nobody else will do this for you.

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Tough to Talk About (Contains potentially triggering material)

Listening to hockey and the World Series online. But also, we're trying to maintain our balance despite rough symptoms.

We're juggling a lot(going for supplemental income, going back to therapy and more). Yet, at times dissociating is really rough. There's a "what's the point, just die and get it over with" feeling that you have to fight really hard. If you don't, we're scared that we'll fall apart.

We're NOT going to kill ourselves. But also, we don't have the luxury of "just go with your feelings".

At times we literally feel like we're going to snap in two. We scream and fight to not fall apart. Lucid dreams happen and we have to hold onto any solid thing we can to not fall apart.

Does any of this happen to you? If it does, how do you cope with it?

Feel free to post your comments. Since we're a global blog, think of all the free input you're getting worldwide. Then, think of the huge consulting fee you'd have to pay elsewhere.

Yet another reason to post your comments.

How Do You Cope?

The global audience gets bigger and bigger. London, Singapore, Perth. Brisbane, Jerusalem, Paris, Dublin. Maybe we should open branch offices.

How are you coping in this "global economic downturn. The worst since the 1930's". How much do you wanna bet that at night, all of these politicians go home and drink champagne that they can't drink in public?

Everywhere you turn, there are cutbacks and fighting over who gets the worst of it. Ireland, the U.K., Vancouver, B.C., Greece, and the States.

What are the common threads:
Higher stress for everyone
Spinning the taxes that will have to come to pay for these cuts
Cutting back vital services. This can mean several things. Cut back hours. Put pressure on the unions and then they fight back by striking. Then the govt. fires them and brings in replacements with less experience.

Now, what's the one thing that no politician in the world will EVER say? Yes, everyone who deserves to go bankrupt should. Also, let's write off the global toxic debt.

Worldwide, hundreds of experts have examined this. Many have also made lots of money avoiding this important concept.

Now, another view. Why is following the rules bad? People below the level of Goldman Sachs or HSBC in the U.K. go bankrupt or lose their homes. Some even go homeless and then lose their lives. This endless "global analysis" of the toxic debt continues to go nowhere.

If one option isn't done, go in another direction. If the banks won't disclose it all, write it off. The G20 could say to them, you had your chance, but you blew it. Now deal with the consequences.

In France, Greece and other countries, people continue to march in the streets. Instead of having a go at them with really boring (fill in nationality here) jokes, try this.

In Ireland, a growing number of people want a general election. In Vancouver, B.C. the Premier will go on TV and try to sell the public on a new tax. But, in Canada it seems that hockey is way more important than the welfare of the country and population.

Is anybody paying attention to the traumatic effect this is having on the public?

In the States, 30% of the population has some form of PTSD. Granted we don't have tanks in the streets and martial law yet. But legally Obama could implement this at any time.

Despite that, millions still think that Obama is "The Great One" who will save us all.

Question: Doesn't continuing denial increase the trauma that you need to pay attention to?

Do you really have to go to Harvard Med School to learn this stuff?