Just finished lunch. Now, it's back to job hunting and trying to cover all the bases regarding financial help.
We're really trying to do this in small segments. Anger and dissociating are still the worst symptoms right now. Another thing is in some foods with "natural flavors". What does that mean exactly? We've asked several people in different stores, and they have no clue. The point is that we don't have the tolerance for it. We're trying to use herbal supplements and other things to help keep our balance. However, at times you have to fight back really hard to not fall apart.
Nighttime is the worst. You fight symptoms all day long and then you're exhausted. You have to fight back because if you don't you'll fall apart. My multiples and little kid aren't saying it's one thing that's causing this. It just feels like all the trauma is coming out. Also, nobody's going to help you.
Do you just sit back, "go with your feelings" and fall apart? Or, do you fight back and always feel like you're going to snap in two?
We don't know of another way to do this. If you have a better idea, tell us.
We don't want to end up with literally nothing because of getting raped and nobody paying attention. We're not there yet. However, that fear is there for all trauma survivors (regardless of what you're dealing with).
Back to job hunting.