Monday, November 23, 2009

How's Your Day?

Working online and keeping pacing in mind. At times there's a little more clarity. But then there's the opposite. And it's still terrifying. You have to fight back or literally die. Even though it's a lucid dream.

Try fighting 50 lucid dreams a day. AND, do everything else.

Then again, what else can you do?

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Time to Post

What's up on your Sunday? Here, it's wet, cold and no break for a while. Then again, in this age of global warming anything is possible.

We're really trying to pace as much as possible. Moving is still going along. But at time when symptoms are really bad we just stop. Go for a walk, go for a drive, a run. Anything to help refocus.

One helpful thing in fighting PTSD? Try not to dwell on the fact of being ignored by society. Easier said than done, you say? True. Yet, what else can you do?

Nobody wants to admit that you're there. People will do anything they have to to get away from you. Nobody asks to be raped. Nobody asks for pain, humiliation and more. But many times if you try to talk about being a guy survivor it's like you're speaking Persian. Nobody has any clue what you're saying.

You don't want to trigger others. You don't want to snap, go on a rampage. And then be on Death Row for killing 50 people. All because of something that's not your fault.

Yet, society doesn't have the (tolerance?) to deal with you. We just don't talk about this in polite society. We can literally say anything else that we want (with no consequences). Yet, in this case, it's just not allowed.

Many parts of the progressive media try at times to give ignored stories attention. Yet, when was the last time you heard about a guy vet rape survivor with PTSD who killed himself? We all know they exist. They're literally screaming for help. Yet, we're not allowed to talk about them. A woman rape survivor who kills herself is tragic. It gets lots of attention.

But what if it was a guy instead of a woman? Would the world come to an end? Would the FCC fine any MSM source that dared to talk about this? What would they say? We fine you $_____ for what, "indecent content"?

These various experts know better. But what's their fallback position? Yes, the number of guy vet survivors is small. Which means it's not worth talking about. So let's move on.

Isn't that insulting to all guy survivors? What the hell happened to that military thing of you always look out for your buddies? We don't care what color you are. We don't care what sex you are. Many don't care if you're gay or straight.

But God help you if you're a guy rape survivor.

Friday, November 13, 2009

Time for the Latest

Hi. Sorry to be away for a while. But a lot's been happening.

We're leaving at the end of next month. We've been in the Midwest for a while. But now it's time to go back to a bigger area for more opportunities. Considering everything that's happened here, we should have left a long time ago. But it's time to leave.

At times symptoms are still crippling. But the good news is:

We're still on the holistic diet.
Water, magnesium, and tai chi seem to help some in controlling adrenalin surges.
We haven't gone back to the softcore pron in over a month. And have no desire to.
We're really taking things a step at a time.
We cancelled the TV half of our cable subscription. It's WAY too triggering. So no need for it.
We're doing the move in stages. Which is nice to be able to pace yourself. And if necessary say, enough. Go for a walk.
We're getting breaks on some moving costs. So it does pay to know people in the front office.

More on the new location soon.