Wednesday, September 20, 2017

You Have to Fight Back

Another hurricane comes thru Puerto Rico. Now, the ENTIRE territory will have no power for 6 months. Imagine a major city in your area with no power for 6 months. What would you do?

Went to another cancer screening test on almost no sleep. After that, had a big late breakfast, went home and then slept. Just rest and protect yourself. The doctor will call back with the results. So we'll see.

In the meantime, you have to fight back. We're not a threat to anybody, including ourselves. What else can you do?

Tuesday, September 19, 2017

Protect Yourself

The hurricanes keep coming. The neocons want to kill millions with their "health care" bill. The rich and powerful say they can have the best of everything. Why? Because they're rich and powerful, of course.

Right now, no noise. No TV, no being bombarded with pain. There's enough of that every day as it is. Instead, protect yourself. Don't dissociate. Don't let your guard down so that you'll fall apart. You have to protect yourself.

Health is holistic. Both physical and mental. When problems flare up, they're connected to something deeper.  Because it all has to come out. If trauma doesn't come out in one way, it will come out in other destructive ways. Why do addicts use? To escape pain.

What other choice do you have except to face it head on?

Monday, September 18, 2017

Don't Relapse

Another day of fighting symptoms and to not black out. Dissociating will only make thing worse. Protect yourself at all costs.

Sunday, September 17, 2017

Struggling with Symptoms

A long day every day fighting symptoms. Feeling abandoned. Facing the full  terror of your trauma history. Nobody helped me for a really long time. They'll never apologize. Nothing you can do about that. Except to say they have to live with that. Nobody forced them to say and do cruel things. Now it's your problem.

Today, don't dissociate. You try and just sit quietly and focus on the space you're on and things around you. Nobody's there. Don't black out. The symptoms and pain will never go away. You just try to protect yourself as best you can.

Friday, September 15, 2017

Fight Dissociating

Fight dissociating and other symptoms, all day long. You turn things off and just focus on trying to feel grounded. But it never stops. You have to fight back.

Protect yourself.

Thursday, September 14, 2017

You have to Fight Back

Another day of fighting symptoms. You have to fight back. Don't dissociate. Otherwise you'll fall apart.

Right now a break from nightmares. But the pain never goes away.

Wednesday, September 13, 2017

No More Storms. But Symptoms Are Still There

Sorry to be away. But it's been a real battle to deal with hurricanes and symptoms. We have a long history of severe addictions. At times it feels like the pain from all of those hits you at once. Now add the PTSD symptoms to that. Sometimes you just want to sit and turn everything off. Just focus on quiet. Don't be bombarded with pain.

But the pain never goes away.

You can't control others. But you do your best to protect yourself. You're not a threat to anybody else. But you have to be careful on bad days with anger, pain or abandonment.

The pain never goes away.
The pain never goes away.
The pain never goes away.

Protect yourself.

Friday, September 8, 2017

More is Coming

First it was Harvey. Now Irma will hit Florida tomorrow. While we try to be aware, at times you just need a break from it.

Symptoms are still there. Despite the pain and how horrible facing our trauma history is, we know we're doing the right thing. Don't dissociate. Don't let your guard down where you might relapse. It's just like an addict. It only makes pain worse.

Stay safe.

Wednesday, September 6, 2017

Fight Symptoms

You have to fight back. Never let your guard down so that you might slip and dissociate. The pain never goes away.

But what else can you do?

Tuesday, September 5, 2017

One's Done. More on the Way

Harvey's done. Now it's Irma. After that, Tropical Storm Jose. Irma is the second most powerful Atlantic hurricane ever. Climate change is getting stronger.

A constant struggle with symptoms. Don't dissociate. You have to always fight to keep some sense of being grounded. You don't have a choice. If not, you'll fall apart.

Protect yourself.

Monday, September 4, 2017

Don't Dissociate

A holiday that almost nobody took off (due to trying to recover from Harvey and more). This week, back to a new doctors' appointment. Don't dissociate. Protect yourself.

Friday, September 1, 2017

Covering a Lot

Got around a lot today with various bills and more. Slowly many things are starting to come back to normal. You do your best.

In the process, it's really exhausting to deal with symptoms. Especially to not dissociate. We don't want to have a relapse and end up literally falling apart. You have to protect yourself. But at times flashbacks happen, and then abandonment and more.

But it's not our fault.