Fighting to keep our focus and to not dissociate. Triggering stuff is everywhere. This means setting boundaries and really paying attention to the effects of things on you.
The despair of symptoms is still there. Do you feel at times like you're about 20 steps back from where you are now? It's more than just the normal ups and downs. On the other hand, facing things head on is the best way to go.
We fight to not black out. Am I going to have a heart attack? If you don't get the anger out, you'll get eaten alive by anger, frustration and other stuff. If you do, will you lose track of where you are? It feels like almost no one will listen. Which means you have to do all of this yourself?
Despite all of this, we know that we're on the right track. It's just really exhausting.