Sunday, July 29, 2012

Hard to Focus

Everything is hitting all at once. I'm trying to keep my balance and focus on things around me.
But it's hard.

Pressure is building inside. It feels like you're out of breath. There's no illness right now that I know of. However, the pressure's there.

Take deep breaths. To to focus on what's in the space at the moment. Easy to say but difficult when you're getting bombarded with flashbacks and more.

We scream and fight to not black out. Because if you do, what happens then? It's been a long time since we've had dissociative blackouts. When they do happen, you have no memory of what you're multiple(s) said. Then, you have to face some pissed off person, and you don't know what happened. It can be a gap in time. It could also be distorted speech. No matter how hard you try to listen, everything sounds garbled.

You didn't ask for any of this. Yet, not all but many have no patience for this.

How do you deal with that?

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