It's Friday. And lots of dissociating and anger. We feel like we're going to snap. But we have to fight back.
It's not just one thing that the multiples and my little kid are terrified of. But it feels like triggers are everywhere. Is it safe to go here? What do we do?
Hyperawareness is still a problem. If someone is behind us, we don't have to turn around. Our awareness is in a wide range all around us. We still think, what do we do if this person attacks us? What's our weapon? We constantly think out ways to strike back before they attack us.
We try to not to trigger others. But we're this close at times to either blacking out or snapping. Then we go home and scream even more to fight to focus.
How are you coping?