Tuesday, June 22, 2010

What Time Zone are You In? (Today is a Moderate Trigger Day)

Did you know that there are 24 hour happy hours worldwide? Clever bit of marketing from some gigantic brewery that would love to have us mention their name here. But we won't.

Thanks for the global support. Next question. Since we are a global PTSD blog, do we have any connections to Wikileaks? No. Two totally seperate niches.

The only common link would be is if their sources were also trauma survivors. Which (based on their leaked material) could be a wide range of things. But we are seperate.

Some good news. It turns out we won't be homeless again. We managed to get a loan which will allow us to stay in our current apt. And stay in the middle of a large, unnamed city with lots of everything.

We still have symptoms, anger and trouble focusing at times. We fight really hard to keep our balance. Despite that, we still have trouble at times with hyperawareness. Do you have the same thing?

Not to trigger you. But how are you coping in your part of the world? Our audience ranges from large to occasionally small areas. Which means the usual mix of traffic james, job stress. And maybe homeless people at intersections.

We've been homeless twice. And when we see these people, we try not to judge. Instead, we just turn away or act like we're talking on the Blackberry. Why? Because that's better than blacking out from horrible flashbacks.

As for other sick things in the world, we just stay away (unless we have to look at it). It's like you're the only one who knows everything that's going on. The rest of the world is about 4 steps behind.

Do you stay and put up with it? Or, do you turn it off?

We find it's better to not look/watch/read/listen. Your time is valuable. So why subject yourself to the same old rubbish that you know might make you dissociate?

At times, we turn it all off and just go for a walk. Or, look out the window and enjoy the quiet. Otherwise, we have horrible nightmares and lucid dreams.

You have to protect yourself. In the process, it may be hard to know who you can trust. But really, despite what others might say and do, nobody else will do it in the end for you.

Do you ever black out while driving? Do you feel like you're going to snap in two? At times we do.

Do you still have crippling despair? How do you cope with that?

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