How are you coping these days? Here, we're still having bad days with dissociating and really horrible anger. We won't buy a gun and go on a rampage or anything. But, you feel at times like you're this close to just beating the shit out of everybody who even looks at you the wrong way.
What helps us to cope? One thing is a better ph balance. Ideally, you want to have a 70/30 ratio (akaline/acidic) in your diet. Too much acidic stuff makes it hard to concentrate. Plus it can potentially aggrevate a lot of conditions.
If we get the balance right, then we feel like we can actually sit still and focus for a while on something. It's still a battle when you try to do that and then you get assaulted by a billion triggers all at once.
Why do these come out? We're not sure. Our last therapist says that it's the severity of the PTSD in our case. And it has to be worked thru in the most non-threatening way possible.
Another thing to consider? If you drink lots of sugar or caffeine, that's depleting your body of chi and water. Which means you have to drink even more water to replace that.
Is this another global marketing scheme from the giant bottled water firms? Maybe.
The point is more awareness of what you do. Not to never have any fun at all. Just be aware of what you're doing. And the effect(s) it has on you.