Lots of bases to cover and place to go. Dissociating is still tough to deal with. You wake up and have to focus your energy to try and feel centered. Even after you do that, you still have to fight it all day long. You don't know where you are. You try to hold onto solid things and you still have to fight to not black out.
There's fear at night as well. Nightmares still happen. Lucid dreams happen during the day (many times at the worst times). You scream and fight to not disappear. Will anybody care if you do?
We don't want to be burned out and angry forever. On the other hand, if trauma doesn't come out one way, it will come out in others.
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