A really rough day on Tuesday. Accidentally too much sugar which led to almost suicidal thoughts. We would never do that, or hurt somebody else. Having said that, it's important to actually admit that those thoughts are there (instead of denying them).
Now, covering lots of job leads and getting ready for another interview on Friday. There's still despair and fighting dissociating. At times it's extremely painful and hard to focus. There's also body pain all over. It feels like somebody's trying to beat you down EVERY SINGLE DAY. With no breaks.
How do you cope with that?
Tip for the day to cope with dissociating. Try checking out the National Debt Clock site. The idea is to focus on something tangible to distract you and get out of the dissociating loop. The main page has about 50 different catagories that are constantly being updated. The perfect video streams to keep you occupied.
Back to the job leads.