Friday, September 7, 2012

How Hot Is It in Your Neighborhood?

Sunny today with a high of 110F. Fortunately, inside we have lots of ice tea, ice and chips and salsa. Hopefully we won't melt.

In the meantime, we still have to fight to scream and get anger out. Our stuck fight-or-flight mechanism is still a problem. It's like you almost black out, but you can't because if you do you'll disappear. Then, will you come back? Will one of my multiples lash out and then you have no idea of what they did or said?

Trying not to dissociate is extremely painful. It feels like depression and pressure that never goes away. Will you have a heart attack? Will you just snap and fall apart? Focusing at times takes an enormous amount of energy. How then do you cope with everything else you have to do?

I'm just trying to keep protection and balance in mind.

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