No noise right now. I don't want to be bombarded with triggering painful stuff. I just want to feel safe in my own home.
How do you feel in yours? Even though there's nobody else here, I still wake up in the middle of the night and search every room, just to be sure. If you go out, you have to have a plan. Just in case something happens. Flashbacks in crowded places still happen. You try and focus on another person talking to you. At the same time, you fight a lucid dream of them trying to going down on you and then kill you.
How do you deal with that?
You just want to feel safe.