All trauma survivors have one thing in common. They ask, what about me? How come nobody wants to listen to my pain? Why other won't listen, I don't know. But here, you can be heard.
I'm not coping very well with the dissocating. It seems to be on me and just takes control before I even realize it. Something will trigger it and it's like a huge ShopVac will pull me away and the "false functional front" comes up to protect my mind. I am almost a recluse now. If it weren't for my elderly parents I would cut away from the world altogether. People are a source of pain for me.I think I am very angry but am afraid that to admit it would let the anger out.....I have to feel in control. I think the anger released would spin me out of control.
I struggle as well.
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