The new software and upgrades seem to be working on my new laptop. Am I as powerful as the NSA? Not yet. But these things take time.
As for other things, dissociating continues to be one of the hardest symptoms to deal with. It feels at times like it's slightly easier to fight back than before to maintain some sense of balance. On the other hand, you feel sad because of everything you've had to go through to reach this point.
Just keep in mind it's not our fault.