Lots of weird and wacky triggering stuff today. If you have to look, be very careful as you do. If you don't, you're not really missing anything.
More fighting to focus today. We scream and fight to stay grounded with solid things. What space are we in? Colors at times seem to help to distract you. Sometimes they can trigger flashbacks as well.
Physical pain from being raped at times still happens. Not so much with being pinned down, but actual anal pain and other sick stuff.
On the other hand, we try to face this head on as best we can. Blissful ignorance doesn't work.