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Symptoms are really rough today. In some ways just as bad as a year ago. Also, sometimes I feel like I'm outside my body. I've already died and I'm looking back at my life. Is this a underlying sign of a potential suicide? I don't want to do it. But I'm not sure why this has happened.
Tomorrow it's back to therapy. And due to money problems I may have to stop for a while. We'll see what happens.