Greetings to our growing global audience. Recently, everywhere from Boston and Mountain View, CA. to Auckland and the People's Republic of Brooklyn, NY.
How's your emotional balance? In my case, not dissociating is one of the toughest things to deal with. All day long you feel like you're getting bombarded with pain. Dissociate and you get relief. However, that's not really true. It just makes things worse. Bits and pieces of sights and sounds hit you, and you scream and fight to not black out or feel like you have no sense of reality.
Do you feel like you're the only one who sees thru all of the delusion, lies and other garbage that's out in the world? As I keep going in trying to stay healthy, more realizations keep happening. As they do, you struggle to not feel totally bombarded with pain. Can you trust anyone? Is everyone lying to you?
You feel at times like you're going to snap and kill everyone who gets in the way. You have to focus really hard to keep some sense of balance. Not perfection, but balance.
Also found out that my victim compensation claim was denied. Now, I have 30 days to write a letter to ask for a second review. I'm also talking to a legal aid attorney to get some suggestions on this.
They're saying you're denied because of statute of limitations (the crimes occured before we started this compensation program). Therefore, legally they don't exist.
How would you respond to that?