Sunday, September 20, 2009

Shock Yourself Awake?

How's your weekend? Here, kicking back and catching up online.

Symptoms are still a pain, especially in the morning. It's like somebody puts a boom box next to you and says SURPRISE! You have to fight to focus and not feel like you're falling apart. Herbs and juices help some. But even with all of that, you still have to almost shock yourself to wake up.

Does this happen to you? How do you retrain? your body to not dissociate? For a while some of my multiples lashed back when I decided to stop using softcore porn as a substitute for relationships. For a week they threw out all kinds of sick and twisted lucid dreams. But then they realized that I was serious and backed off. Symptoms still happen (including lucid dreams).

How do you cope with triggers? Right now it feels like almost everything is a trigger. Everything has to be censored. If you don't, you end up dissociating for hours.

Sometimes do you feel like you're barely hanging on? What helps you?

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