More horrible nightmares. You fight your way through it, and still that's not enough. You have to fight back, or you'll die. It doesn't matter that it's a nightmare. You have to fight back. Then, you open your eyes and what then? Now, you try to rest and feel some sense of being grounded.
How do you deal with your trauma pain? On bad days I have to turn everything off. I want to feel safe from being attacked. Every day it's non stop fighting dissociating. You try to face your trauma history as best you can. But the pain is still there.
What do you do then?