Lots of rest today as we try to pay attention to small things. Don't just push thru it and say it's nothing. Actually, it IS something.
You struggle to not snap in two. How do you cope with abandonment? You don't want to black out, and then wonder what happened? You literally feel terrified at times and can't move. You have days where that's all you do. Just try to not fall apart.
You scream in pain and don't want to fall apart. Because you want to feel safe.
Stay safe in your part of the world.