Thursday, January 22, 2015

Nothing to Hide Behind

You had things to hide behind in the past. Alcoholism, soft core porn, online hookers and more. Now, I don't do any of that anymore. You'll always struggle with junk food. My cardiologist says try to keep your weight under control. Why? Because it's easy for heart patients to put on lots of weight. Then, it takes forever to lose it.

A phrase for the day. In the most non threatening way possible, face your trauma pain head on. If it doesn't come out in one way, it will come out in others. At times, we feel almost paralyzed with pain. You try deep breathing and using things around you to try and have some sense of being grounded.

Then again, what happens when that doesn't work?

Part of my trauma history is that many others in the "immediate family" (whatever that means) are mentally ill. Why? I'm not sure. Then again, I'm not responsible for their health. I will set boundaries in good ways to protect my well being.

You feel paralyzed with pain. It's not my fault. I'm not a threat to anyone.

I did nothing wrong
I did nothing wrong
I did nothing wrong

More as it happens.

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