The nightmares are still there. Usually you wake up around 1 a.m., and then you can't go back to sleep. You have to get out of bed and go somewhere else where you'll feel more grounded. This means two to three hours of sleep a night (if you're lucky).
How are your symptoms? One thing that I'm still struggling with is facing how severe my abuse history has been. You fight to survive, and it feels like nobody can be bothered to listen. Despite that, you have to fight to set boundaries and protect your well being.
You scream and try to not black out.
I still struggle to not have one of my multiples lash out. Then, you have no idea of what happened.
You just want to feel safe.