Thursday, November 1, 2012

Surviving Sandy and Other Stuff (Contains potentially triggering content. Read at your own risk)

First, to all of our Stateside East Coast readers affected by Hurricane Sandy, stay safe as you deal with your particular situation. Whatever it may be, you do deserve to be heard and treated with respect. Regardless of who you're dealing with.

We're covering as many bases as possible while we try to cope with symptoms. Dissociating is still one of the hardest ones to deal with. There's anger and trying to not black out or punch out everyone you see.

Regardless of whatever you're dealing with, you do matter. Whether you're trying to survive in New York City or somewhere else, human emotions aren't a light switch that you can just turn on and off. It doesn't work like that.

If you are affected by this storm, is anyone paying attention to you? In my case, I've been laughed at and treated like dirt by everyone from therapists to law enforcement. Oh, sorry. Am I intruding on your day by talking about being a guy rape survivor? Something that I didn't ask for?

Lots of questions come to mind:

Does anyone want to admit that I exist?
Does anyone care that I do?
Would anyone care if I wasn't here?
Why is the rest of the world afraid to admit that I exist or touch me in any way?

What's one of the hardest things right now? Maybe not having anything to use to escape what feels like daily pain. In the past, it was everything from soft core porn to booze to junk food. Now, no more of that. This means of course that everything has to come out. Either in a good or a destructive way.

It may feel like the rest of the world just wants you to shut up and go away. Well, you won't. So to them, deal with it.

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