A sunny day with some tea and tunes online. No news, no death and destruction. Just focus and some calm.
We're trying for that. At times though, we still have nightmares , body pain and don't feel safe in crowded places. Not always, but many times we carry a weapon in our bag because we feel better. At night, we keep it at the foot of the bed, along with many times the mobile. It doesn't matter that there's nobody else physically in the room. You just feel better knowing that you have protection.
On really bad days, we feel like we can never let our guard down. Everybody and everything is a threat. Don't trust anybody. They're saying one thing, but what do they really want? Does anybody care at all?
We're just trying for balance.