Nightmares have come back. There's no set pattern to them. But when they happen, it' like I can't go back to sleep. I try and just when I think I am, it's more nightmares. Then, I try to just go back to bed after breakfast until I feel like I can focus. Sometimes it works, and sometimes it doesn't.
Dissociating is still one of the hardest things to cope with. No matter what, don't dissociate. Do something else. Despair is there. Sometimes you don't want to answer the phone. Just turn everything off and try to feel safe in your own home.
You're exhausted. But what else can you do but fight back.