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Symptoms are hitting hard. I do all the holistic things I can, use herbs and more. But still I get hit with this. Everything is in extremes. For others, a thought hits and you make a decision. But sometimes it takes me an hour to get past this because of a stuck fight-or-flight mechanism.
I feel sad, I cry and sometimes I wonder, will I always have this? But I refuse to just roll over and die.