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These days, I'm fighting really hard to not dissociate. But the nightmares and more keep coming. I told my therapist yesterday that I will never just lay back and disappear in dissociating, flashbacks, etc. It's really debilitating right now. After a day of this you feel like you can't handle anything else.
It's really frustrating when horrible things happen all over the world (pick a place). People draw attention to it and try to change it, which is fine. But the bad part is that that's ok to talk about. But when trauma survivors try to get help, they're told to just f**k off and go away. And that doesn't seem right.