Endless Pain

Fight and don't dissociate. Don't put yourself in a position where you'll slip and black out. Pain is always there. You never get a break.

Part of it also is your immune system. My diet was so poisonous for so long that I'm still dealing with detoxifying from it. Your symptoms are a reflection of the severity of your history. We did nothing wrong. But symptoms are always there.

Don't dissociate
Don't black out
Fight back
Protect yourself
Don't slip
You have to protect yourself

You just want to feel safe.