Note: This blog contains explicit content and occasional use of "triggers" where necessary to get points across. What are some examples?:
various sights and sounds
formerly favorite foods
If these bother you, stop reading now. Otherwise, keep going and thanks for the support.
Another day of getting hammered. Went out for a while and I thought I was going to snap in a store. I had to stay to get everything done and had to fight really hard to not explode. I went back home and screamed for about an hour to finally get some balance again. I do all the positive holistic things I can. And I still get this every day. But I have no choice. If I don't, I'll disappear.
I still feel like falling down and crying sometimes. Because sometimes you just don't know what to do.