Another day of struggling for rest and fighting symptoms. I go back in a week for my next cardiologist appointment. Closer is my father's back in the hospital again (due to his back surgery). The good news is his rehab is going ok so far. So he'll be ok.
Does it feel like violently triggering stuff is everywhere? You're not responsible for it. You can't singlehandedly save the world. You constantly feel run down. Small things take a huge amount of energy. but you know that protecting yourself comes first.
You just want to feel safe. You want to have control over your life. How's your struggle?