Last year, I was evaluated by a psychiatrist regarding my PTSD symptoms. She said that the severity was equal to s vet who's done way too many tours in dangerous places, and never got the proper help. Now, I'm dealing with the long term consequences of that.
Every day, you try and focus as best you can. However, it's still a battle to not dissociate. For a long time, violent dissociating was a survival mechanism. Now, I still have to fight to focus and not end up dissociating all day.
We feel sad, we cry, and we even curl up in the corner so nobody will hit us. You turn away and silently scream, and that way again nobody will abuse the shit out you.
Does this happen to you?