A surprise. I managed to get thru the day with no caffeine. Drinking caffeine can drain your chi. Plus, who needs the high and the hallucinations coming back in my case? It's like you're ultra aware of what the tiniest amounts of chemicals can do to your system.
You're also aware of how nightmares and violent PTSD systems can do to you. If these keep happening, is this a dangerous sign in some way? Or, does it just depend on your history?
I'm not sure. But, I still struggle with not letting anger totally eat me alive. How's your struggle?