It's not like we're feeling like we're under attack 24 hours a day. Lately though, you do have to focus more to not relapse and go back to destructive dissociative stuff. It doesn't matter if it's drugs or some other type f addiction. The urge to just say f**k it, I want this now won't help.
What causes other trauma survivors to relapse? I don't knoe. It's not fair to them for me to try and take their place. Just in my case, it's a matter of escaping lifelong pain.
Ordinary human beings who didn't ask to be trauma survivors can only take so much.