Lots to stuff to do today. Still no word about the new counselor. In the meantime, we're going in small segments to try and deal with symptoms. Dissociating is still the worst one. Next would be really sick lucid dreams (far too triggering here to mention this early in the morning).
It's a lot all at once. Anger, frustration, feeling abandoned and exhausted all the time. Yet, what else can you do?