Listening online to some non-threatening content. However, if they start to talk about how there will be an NHL season, things might get tough.
It feels like all the backed up trauma from being raped is flooding out. There's a sense of emptiness, and not knowing what to do. You've tried to get help, and 95% of those who you thought would be able to helped just said go away. Can you trust anyone?
While that's there, we're still covering bases in tiny segments. We also realize that we still have complex symptoms. We have to fight all day long to not fall apart. Body pain, anger and hyperawareness at times is still there as well.
We don't want to feel like we have no control at all. We don't want to be literally dependent on others for every single thing.
Right now, lots of emptiness and pain