We're still connecting in trying to find a new therapist. No luck yet.
In the meantime, emptiness is still there. It feels like every single day since we got raped has been torture in fighting symptoms and feeling like almost no one could be bothered to help. You have no other choice but to fight. No one will help or listen.
Now, there's emptiness and just an almost constant feeling of being wiped out. There's no other physical problem. You feel like you have things to do, and it takes an enormous amount of energy to do them. It's not the usual ups and downs. It's something different.
Lots of sadness right now.