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Why is this happening? All this week I've been getting hit hard with flashbacks, adrenalin surges and sick twisted thoughts (mainly about being raped again). I try to do all the right things. But it still happens. My therapist says it's one of my multiples reflecting what the sick m****rf****r and others said for so long. You fight to focus and stop this crap. But at times it's like the other person just won't back off.
Then at night you cry and try to sleep. But the nightmares keep coming.