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The past few days have been brutal with lots of morphing and dissociating. At times my little kid and multiples feel like 35 years of s**t is caving in all at once. I do all the helpful holistic stuff. And it still hits hard. My therapist says to just keep going and it will pass. Part of me understands that. But also, I think will I always have this?
The terror of the whole world not caring hits hard. You don't know who to trust. What do I do? What do I say? You cry at night and only want someone to listen. But it feels like the world says, only women get raped. If you're a guy and you're stupid enough to get raped NOT ONCE but MANY TIMES, what the f**k's wrong with you? And after that it's piss off.
But I'll never stop talking. And, remember this election year to vote your conscience. And not a catagory.