Fighting to Maintain that Balance

NOTE:
This blog contains explicit language and at times uses potentially harmful "triggers":

sights
sounds
colors
key phrases
and more

These are only used to help get across key points. If these bother you, stop reading now. If not, continue and thanks for the support.

Went to therapy, and at times it was frustrating. Every client reaches points where you feel stuck and wonder, what now? Is this a never-ending Woody Allen movie? Or will I someday be ok?

Some of the hardest things to deal with right now are when flahsbacks happen. And it feels like it's humiliating and the WHOLE WORLD is looking and saying, what the f**k do you want from me? You fix this. People laugh at you, people treat you like s**t. And you're supposed to fix it all and never be human with actual emotions and more that all trauma surivivors have. Another thing. The fact that my father put his career first over the physical and emotional welfare of his own kid. Can't piss off the boss,. So just shut the f**k up and go away.

How is a little kid supposed to deal with that?