A rough start today as you're bombarded with pain. You scream and try to get the pain and anger out without blacking out. You don't have a choice. You have to get it out. Then, you try to go thru your day without blacking out.
Later, you start to have more of a sense of being grounded. The symptoms are still there. Body memory and other pain is still there. But you know you're doing the right things. Just taking more meds will only be a band aid. It won't get to the source of the problems. Same thing with acupuncture and reiki. Both can be helpful. But they're band aids.
You just want to feel safe. But you have to fight to not fall apart.