Protect Yourself

Trying to rest and pay attention to small things in how you feel. Part of it is also facing the total reality of how horrible your trauma history has been and continues to be. After being repeatedly raped between the ages of 8 to 10, I've had horribly severe PTSD symptoms. I've also had severe psychosis symptoms and an addiction to soft core porn.

Now, the porn addiction is gone. I still have psychosis symptoms at times. But it's still a battle. It's important to try and face your history as best you can, without endangering yourself.

You have horrible moments where you cry, feel depressed and get bombarded with pain. On the other hand,  avoiding it only makes it worse.

Protect yourself.