More circulation pain and fighting to not black out. My chi flow is varying a lot. Even if you walk a lot and try to massage your legs to feel better, many times that doesn't work. But, what else can you do?
Weird thoughts come out of nowhere. I don't want to violently dissociate and disappear. It's like the essence of what makes you you disappears. Then what happens? You have to fight to not fall apart.
It's not my fault
I did nothing wrong
My multiples, little kid and I did nothing wrong
We're not a danger to anybody
You have to fight back
You can't just sit back and do nothing
I don't want to violently dissociate and make the pain worse
How do you cope?