Catching up on a lot today (bills, online stuff and more). No sleep last night as we tried to not dissociate. Where is the fine line between dissociating and dreaming? I'm not sure. But it's scary enough to try and to just not fall apart.
Are you being bombarded with flashbacks and pain? You try to focus and hold onto what's real. Despite that, it's a non stop battle to not snap.
You just want to feel safe.