No noise right now. Just quiet as I write online and try not to dissociate. You do what's necessary to fight to survive. But in the process, you feel overwhelmed at times by how hard you have to work to not fall apart. You try to not just collapse from exhaustion. Because you have to fight back.
You feel abandoned. Like nobody seems to care, or could be bothered to care. Despite that, you can't sit back and do nothing. How do you cope with that?