Another appointment with the therapist, and more struggle with symptoms. My trauma history is one contributing factor to my heart disease and PTSD. Other than a tiny number of people in person, nobody else was there. Do you have to do everything by yourself? I've never had one day that's completely free of dissociating. At times I have periods where I can focus for a short time. But along with that comes depression. You don't know what to do. How do you react to that?
You have to protect yourself. Is everybody abusive, evil and nasty? Like lots of other survivors, I'm trying to set boundaries as best I can. Nobody else will do it. On the other hand, you feel like you're getting bombarded with pain. What then?