Lots of appointments this week. I talked to my therapist about adrenal burnout. Not being an MD of course, the next step is to talk to a new primary doctor about it. I tried another clinic, but they're too small to deal with complex cases like mine.
It feels at times like you're getting hit really hard by the severity of your symptoms. My first therapist actually said, considering how severe your symptoms have been, I'm surprised you're still alive.
How do you respond to that?
Right now, it feels like there's no energy. Everything is a threat. You can't watch the news, because it's too violent and predictable. You get up in the morning, and everything feels burned out. Everything takes focus to do.
But despite all of that, I know I'm on the right path. I'm much more aware of how severely untreated trauma can beat you down. You just want to feel safe.