Everybody that I trust keeps telling me the same thing. Considering your trauma history, what's happening now is normal. One minute you feel like you have some energy and cn get thru your day. The next, you can't do anything. You struggle to fight and to not fall apart. Meanwhile, it feels like the world the screaming at you. Why can't you keep up? Why are you always fucking tired? No apparent comprehension or understanding of what you're fighting.
How do you make these people understand? You can't. On the other hand, you can protect yourself. Considering a lifetime of abuse, nobody deserves to have that continue.
More doctor appointments coming soon. In the meantime, take breaks when you need them. Sorry, but I'm not available right now.