Not a bad day today in trying to stay off of stimulants. This doesn't mean never have fun and don't enjoy good food, etc. Just be aware of how things affect you. It's like as your system stays cleaner, you're more aware of tastes, chemicals affecting your system and emotions as well.
Trying to focus and not dissociate.
Flashbacks and nightmares are still happening. It's not because you had a snack too late at night. It's because backed up trauma is flooding out. At times there are bits and pieces of scenes that I don't know. At others it's like one after another. You try to focus and not black out, but it's tough.
We're just trying for a sense of balance.