Nightmares have come back. There's no set pattern to them. But you never get a break from them. Pain is also there. Arthritic, circulation and body memory pain. All at the same time. You have to fight back. You can't just sit back and do nothing.
You scream and fight to get anger out. Sometimes you get a brief moment of clarity and relief. But then the cycle starts again. When the end of the day comes, you can barely move. But you have to fight. Just doing nothing will make you fall apart.
We did nothing wrong
It's not our fault
We are not weird, strange or dangerous in any way
You have to screen everything to protect yourself
You have to fight back